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Being too damn nice.

I quit heroin and other heavy opioids just before fentanyl really hit the streets. Quit cold turkey after losing a few friends and realizing that I could get a bag cut with fent and die, and I couldn't do that to my siblings; they're a lot younger than me and really idolized me at the time.

When I was well enough to get to a store without shitting myself or throwing up bile everywhere, I went and bought a handle(1.75l) of the cheapest vodka I could. I continued that every day until 4 years ago.

I have cirrhosis, and my liver could shit the bed at any time, but I'm alive and I'm clean (for the most part) and sober. I work in recovery and am working to become a Drug and Alcohol Counselor now.

I quit smoking about 6 months ago. I went to the store, didn't have quite enough for a pack, and just haven't bought another. Tobacco has been the hardest for me by far. Alcohol withdrawal almost killed me - I had to be hospitalized for near a month - but I was on high doses of benzodiazepines so I don't remember much of it. The cravings for a cigarette are intense. They've gotten better zand they will continue to do so, but damn, it's rough.

Doom scrolling. The thing is though when I take time off work I don't touch the internet at all for days on end. I work on my hobbies instead. It's when I only have a day or two of free time (even less when you account for having to do chores) and not enough time to finish whatever I'm working on along with whatever I have to come back to next Monday weighing on my mind that I just turn to my phone instead. That's only working 40 hours a week too. There are people in far worse situations than me.

Fiction. Written. Scifi almost exclusively.

When I can't get the good stuff I use the bad stuff. But I'm always using.

Weed was easy. Don't even think I was addicted. For me, I've been struggling for with sleeping pills lately. Might go back to the weed but just do oils before bed for sleep. I'm a shift worker in a high stress job so I need something at night to calm the nerves sometimes.

Porn and weed.

I've no doubt there are people that can use it moderately, but my brain just keeps wanting more. I quit cigarettes with no issues. I went from drinking a 6-pack a night to barely drinking at all. But those two really are hard to escape. Every time I kick weed I always have a night where I'm relaxing and I go and get a preroll - then end up getting more and smoking for the next few days before I realize what I'm doing. Same thing with porn. I can smoke a hell of a lot of porn.

But seriously, it's hard to quit. And I think that part of the reason is due to my inability to label either of those things as "real addictions" in my head. Neither of those things are demonstrably decreasing my quality of life, at least not the way cigarettes and alcohol did, so I'm having trouble contextualizing them as harmful. Porn is easier for me in that regard, since it definitely subconsciously affects my views on the human body, and noticing that more is helping me shake the habit.

For the record, I do think weed is a lot less harmful than booze. But there's a right way and a wrong way to use it, and I've been using it the wrong way for so long that I don't think I can use it the right way.

To quote one of the great philosophers of our times:

"Well, Stan, the truth is marijuana probably isn't gonna make you kill people, and it most likely isn't gonna fund terrorism, but, well son, pot makes you feel fine with being bored, and it's when you're bored that you should be learning some new skill or discovering some new science or being creative. If you smoke pot you may grow up to find out that you aren't good at anything."

Now, I don't necessarily think all of that is true. Plenty of people are creative and innovative and also smoke pot, but it does make you content with doing nothing. Very relaxing in the moment, until you realize, after a few years of daily smoking, that all your friends have been learning new things and growing and you've been sitting on the couch watching TV the whole time. It's totally fine to use every now and then, and by no means should be illegal, but we do need to start being realistic about how daily cannabis use quells that burning desire to be active and improve ourselves.

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Tobacco. 10,000%.

I smoked 3 packs a day for 25 years.

Then when vaping appeared on the scene, I switched to vaping - HEAVY vaping, loads of nicotine (you could buy 100 mg/ml nicotine base by the gallon for a few bucks back when it was still free). For 10 years.

Then finally I quit vaping. It's been 5 years.

I'm finally free from tobacco. And it's entirely thanks to vaping for me. I tried a million times and only vaping finally peeled me off tobacco (and then it took me 10 years to peel myself off vaping, but that was easier).

That's what it took and how long it took me to get off tobacco. I curse the everlasting shit out of the day I took my first drag on a cigarette...

Not to claim equivalence or anything, but smartphone and the internet (ironic saying so here I know).

I’m a xennial … old enough to remember living without all this and the middle time where computers were either games or just useful tools.

For me, and I’m pretty sure many others, I’m pretty convinced it’s better that way.

I’d really like to get away from these things, at least just to relearn older habits.

Excessive amounts of food. I have to eat, but cutting back to the amount I should be eating for my age and physical activity is so tough.

The cause is binge eating in my youth when I was extremely active but didn't eat three meals a day due to adhd absentmindedness. Frequently I would only have one or two meals a day, but eat two or more meals worth of calories at a time and burn it off in short order.

Now with family and a desk job with a scheduled lunchtime it is basically impossible to eat when I'm hungry instead of when it is 'time to eat' and portion control is a struggle. Quitting smoking required buying a house and quitting together with the wife, at least that had a cutoff date that I could say "I haven't smoked since moving in". Eating less is something I need to do every day!

Alcohol. I never drank until I got an IT internship and the boss was big into craft beers. I started drinking craft beer every night just to have something to bond with him through to try to turn the internship into a full-time job. I did get the job, but then struggled for years with alcohol dependence.

After my dad died I nearly drank myself to death and managed to quit for an entire year. Then I got cheated on, and home was no longer a safe space, so I hung out at the bar every day instead. It's been 6 months and I've gone from ~75 beers / week to ~24. Just tapering myself off slowly. Wegovy helps - I can't have more than a few drinks without feeling super bloated now.

watching Corner Gas!

Porn I’m afraid. Starting as a way to combat boredom and loneliness and anxiety as a preteen has turned in to a fifteen year long struggle and descent in to various medications and treatments that only impede my ability to develop healthy intimate relationships. Nofap, yorubrainonporn, abstaining, none of it has been effective for more than three weeks of it. Even being a pen tester when the compulsivity hits, it’s me versus my skills. And it’s always a losing demoralizing battle.

Caffeine I have quit a few times and that has the worst physical withdrawal of anything I have quit (hard drugs & alcohol I have never used enough to become physically habituated). Speed probably the most difficult emotionally/psychologically.

I don't worry about caffeine anymore, just maintain the habit.

Nicotine. No cigs anymore but never got off the vape.

Social media. I'll close the app and put my phone in my pocket, done with scrolling, then immediately take out my phone and open an app.

I have quit sugar, caffeine, nicotine, weed, and am trying to get my alcohol consumption under control.

Sugar was almost automatic. I just don't have much of a sweet tooth, so consciously avoiding sugar was really easy. I can't say I've noticed much of a difference since, although overly sugary things like Coke now taste disgusting, and I can immediately tell when something has been sweetened with sugar, even if it's really subtle. It's like a 6th sense. You'll be surprised at the stupid shit people put sugar into. Pickles, mustard, tomato sauce... these things do not need sugar!

Caffeine had the most intense withdrawal effects. The caffeine headache is unlike any other headache I've ever had, and I'm a migraine sufferer. The brainfog was horrible too. Coming out the other side is great though. Plus having a coffee from that point on is a fucking glorious experience.

Nicotine took me years, and I wouldn't have accomplished it without switching to vaping first. I've written about this before but that makes it sound easier than it was. There were many many many failed attempts before I put down the vape for good. This one has had the best benefits though. You don't realise how good breathing is until you're fully quit for a while.

Weed was really not my choice. I really really overdid it, and I now can't touch the stuff. I've tried, and it's always a terrible time. I just withdraw inwards and become an anxious, paranoid mess. What's worse is it takes me days to recover as well. Doesn't matter how little I have or how "no really this weed is super mellow dude" it is, I consistently have a bad time now. I miss this one the most. I used to really enjoy what it was like in the beginning.

Alcohol is my fucking kryptonite. I cannot get it under control. I think my only option at this point is really to go teetotal. it's not really bad enough for me to what to be so drastic with it though. I'm not an angry drunk, I don't spend more than I can afford on it, it's not really negatively affecting my life... I just drink too much and too often, and I worry for my health.

New things. I simply can't stay with anything. Makes it basically impossible to have any decent job, because people want and expect you to be an expert at what you do.

Nicotine. I was able to quit for about three months last year. Going to give it another try tomorrow now that I've run out of patches.

I can beat the addiction of playing around on my phone very often throughout the day.

Coffee/Monster Java. I really feel like I can't function without either. I can go without Monster Java for a few days, but the coffee is something I can't go without in it's absence.

Porn. While this has been gradually getting better with not stockpiling tons and tons of images and not stroking off as much. I do spend quite some time looking at porn and falling into old habits from time to time.

Food Portion Control. I have poor portion control, I really do. I've long stopped going to chinese buffets which is a great step in progress. But I've substituted it with going to BK time to time and grabbing things that are just as bad if eaten in a day's worth.

Alcohol. Nicotine was a walk in the park.

Gonna have to go with alcohol and benzodiazepine abuse for this one, basically because it's the only one that I have beaten (citation needed). Only one relapse in the past 10-ish years or so! Though it took a few relationships with it, and I've gone through multiple hospitalizations (some even voluntarily), and because of that combo and all the other shit that was going on in my head (not to mention the cocktail of SSRIs and eventual SNRIs like Effexor at max dosage combined with stuff like Seroquel at max dosage for literal years, of which Effexor is still the bane of my existence; and stuff like ECT) there's like this hazy quality in my own past for me. As if I'm talking about someone else. I can't even remember most of my life from around 2013-2018 or so.

I'd say the worst part about abusing benzos with alcohol is how good it feels. I still have the cravings. Like even now I'd be up for it. That combined with the fact that it only brings out the worst in me, every narcissistic and sosiopathic tendency is not only brought forth but amplified also. And it's unhealthy in general.

So if you don't happen to die in your sleep; once you wake up and realize just how many people you've hurt, when the full weight of your own actions and the coming consequences descend upon you, you just might hope that you did. Vice, thy name is me

Nicotine by far. I quit doing most other drugs (except I still enjoy smoking weed), but I just cannot quit smoking. I’ve tried several times, and even if I go a month or two, I still can’t resist.

I think the reason for this is because I actually enjoy smoking quite a lot. All those other drugs eventually became more of a living hell than they were fun, so quitting them was easier.