ADHD

I'm in my mid 30s, and I have been dealing with ADHD my whole life. I have some important, but hard advice. If you aren't up for that, just don't read the rest of my comment.

I get the frustration of having people not struggling telling you to just struggle harder, and people you would expect sympathy from (friends, family) not supporting or sympathizing with you.

That said, and this is a bitter pill to swallow, the world at large does not care about your personal conditions. Whether you are a reliable friend, teammate, worker, spouse, etc matters far more than your ever present inner turmoil.

Work with medical professionals to get your symptoms under control so you don't beat yourself up at every turn for fucking up in ways that you are predisposed to. Learn to work with and around your own shortcomings and limitations instead of beating your head against the same damn wall every time. Build proper internal responses and coping skills to these events.

You clearly are aware of some of your own behavioral and thinking patterns that are not good or helpful, like overanalyzation after a fuck up. You already have your targets for things about yourself to work on.

This is not a nice thing to hear or to have to do, but it is essential if you want to survive as a grown ass adult in this world. You don't need to be perfect, but you will need to keep trying to do better, forever.

You can blame the condition that you are just going to have to live the rest of your life with, or you can take ownership that you fucked up again and work to not do it going forward. The fact that you are already beating yourself up about your mistake does not invalidate the right of other people to be frustrated at what happened.

No one has the right to make their internal turmoil everyone else's problem, even if it may be particularly burdensome. The world should be far more sympathetic and empathetic, but at some point you have to take responsibility for you. That means more than "I feel so bad", it also means "What can I do to prevent repeats, that I can actually follow through on rather than just have as magical thinking?"

Don't make plans dependent on getting your shit together. Make plans that will still work even if you keep fucking up in the same ways you did before.

It all gets easier with time, as long as you keep trying.

ADHD is a reason not an excuse.

The thing I learnt is only assholes expect you to remember 100% of thing 100% of the time.

If you get asked something you can always delay them by saying "I added that to our documentation, let me pull it up"

Now suddenly you go from someone others think as doesn't know anything, to the person who actually updates documentation with evolving changes.

I needed 3 years of ritalin therapy before realizing that all these self managment tips from people that dont have adhd CAN'T work. I saw that because 3 years of ritalin changed me like I never did before.

the problem is: people think I am diddling around because I do nothing. before, I would do a lot of things and always have breakdowns and stop doing them. I was depressed and worse all my life, well maybe not till age fourteen.

Now, I do nothing, i am am kinda happy and pleased with my self like I never was before.

people just dont get it.

i dig being happy. But they want me to be a busybody.

But I really dont know WHY I should be. I just wanna have peace.

Perhaps you can take solace in knowing that when you hear the phrase "good in a crisis" you can bet your ass that they only got that way by constantly fucking things up and making it work at the last second.

Those "planners" and people who can "remember things that aren't directly in front of their face" just freeze up like a deer in headlights when things go sideways.

I read a Simon Sinek book as part of a management book club and even hit bullshit misinformation on ADHD in there. It's fucking pervasive and, as a millennial, I am now primarily just fighting against my own shitty internalization from years of passive aggressive bullshit.

I am a manager with ADHD who manages some people with ADHD and it's hard for all of us - I try to give my reports space to fail and overcome ruts "If you find yourself in an unproductive mood don't beat yourself up - if your performance is an issue I'll let you know well before any administrative actions are taken" and it's still an issue.

I am hoping it isn't as deeply beaten into genz but school absolutely wailed on us for momentary distraction... I remember being in a parent teacher meeting (there were a lot of those) where my mom asked "And xmunk is doing well on tests and retaining the knowledge?" And the teacher replied "Well yes, but he's rarely focused in class and is disruptive during our quiet study time." ... I seriously want to go back and slap that teacher 'Study time doesn't benefit me, and if I'm being disruptive to others just fucking send me out to run around in circles in the playground or some shit.' But no... my grades suffered not because of academic failures but because I was partially graded on my ability to mask.

Be fucking kind to your brain - there is an expected level of performance for your job and as long as you're above that you can give yourself a brain break and you should not feel guilty about it.

I never mention my ADHD to anyone but my therapist and friends I've known for several years. I don't want people to change how they treat me, whether for better or worse, when they find out about it.

One of the worst things in my life is not knowing where my brain disorders end and where my personality begins. It feels like no matter what I do, I'm never good enough for myself.

I came here to say something but then I saw a shiny. The shiny has my attention now. The words above no longer have my interest.

What’s RSD?

Absolutely, I mean, we should still do our personal best when it comes to important tasks, but some days, our best feels like very little to nothing.

I already try to work with lists and break down tasks into smaller tasks, but that can lead to 30 items per week. If it's going really great, I do 25. But among the 5 failed tasks could be something really important, like a last deadline for a bill before it goes to court, tax filing before thousands are lost, even watering a flower etc. To others, it may appear like I achieved nothing, but honestly I'm already happy it went that way and some stuff got done.

Honestly, I can't bear to imagine the rest of my life dealing with this. Truly, I'll never amount to more than scraping by in life, and it's such a shitty bleak picture. But whatever, I've already mourned for the normal life I'll never lead, and I'll keep doing my best which isn't good enough until everything falls apart completely, then I'll kill myself. Happy Friday!

That's exhausting? All I hear is fucking excuses. /s