Maybe it's my brain (and physical medical issues too, energy etc), but I honestly don't understand the appeal of most programming languages. Maybe Python, but I still hate the idea of the language being a bottleneck (I know there are workarounds, but at the very least that also complicates binding support).

I found a somewhat-niche language I like but nothing is at the point where I'd like it to be, and some of that isn't actually a problem with language support itself (particularly given that I want to at least start at a higher-level). Some of the issues would be sidestepped if I just started with 3D, but then I'd probably need to learn Blender (unless there is a more minimal+free lowpoly editor that does vertex colors). Though I don't really have much in the way of ideas either, which is why I also don't feel like making something with a toolkit (I actually made a simple 'adventure book'/interactive fiction reader but didn't feel like doing the writing to develop it further).

Also anybody who wants details just look at my posts as I've typed out this stuff a few times before (also in normal comments for more contexts, but those might be harder to find).

TL;DR: I am 30, or 40 years old and I do not need this.