Strangely enough, I feel the same about my work's Window's laptop at the end of the week. There's a feeling called awe, where I wonder how things aligned for me to experience the daunting interconnected occurrences spanning hundreds of lives for me to be precisely where I am now. Usually it's around a landmark or beautiful art where I stop and wonder. I felt awe working on a fullstack of Microsoft products, but it was a twisted dark one. One where I wonder how on earth people think this company is competent at anything when literally anything else in a software product category is better, save Windows and Office. VSCode is sweet, but even that is open sourced.

And those two only win because of market share at this point. That's all they have, and one has default telemetry and the other a subscription.