๐ Months ago I started working really hard at disarming the trigger of hearing the accent/dialect of my father. 50 uurs later of watching dutch and flemish tv I can listen to what ever I want without any neg feelings ( mortal dread ) arising.
So now I have started watching the movie philosophy of art channel I really wanted to and it's goed.
It's so hard to disarm the ghosts in our heads but it's worth it. ๐ I could have just thought to myself; I don't like this movie channel, I don't like this guy; that would have been easy. But I knew that was rubbish, I did like it and he was a smart nice guy worth listening to , so I made the effort. I also didn't want my father to succeed. How dare he mess me up like that. It's my life. :)
( I also watched all the movies talked about, most I had already seen ) so I at least had a reference point. ๐