Zero22xx

I started off on MySpace when I was around 17 or 18. But back then I didn't have uncapped wifi and I would've had either a brick or a java dumbphone in my pocket, so I only really accessed it at work. Those were fun times though.

After MySpace I used various forum sites. I wasn't interested in Facebook because my opinion was "been there, done that with MySpace" but a family member signed me up there. And I'd be lying if I said I didn't end up hooked there for a few years.

When I finally discovered Reddit though, I dropped Facebook like a hot potato and went all in. It was like the forum sites I loved but bigger and better and with everything in one place.

Never could get the hang of Twitter though. I don't 'get' places like Instagram either because you can in fact, post photos on other social media too. And the comment sections are a dumpster fire. And I tried TikTok but see absolutely no value in being spoonfed content instead of choosing.

Nah you're right, I've probably needed therapy for a long time. In fact, I'm pretty sure that I'm lifelong undiagnosed something, either autism or ADHD or both. And definitely depression, although I'm starting to believe that it's a symptom rather than the cause. And going around like this without answers or treatment has kinda wrecked my life so far.

The thing that has been holding me back from seeking answers in recent years is that I really can't afford private help and I have strong doubts about the public healthcare system in my country, particularly when it comes to mental health. But I'm starting to realise that the least I could do is try it.

I think what happened with me on Bluesky is that when things started off ok there, I started daydreaming that I could put the recluse life behind and re-join the world. I wanted to try something completely different from Reddit and I was invested in making something for myself on this shiny new platform, leaving the recluse life behind me and rejoining society. For years, apart from checking other platforms out occasionally, Reddit was my sole social media, so it was a new, exciting adventure lol. I built up some pretty big expectations of how it was going to go in my head and reality didn't live up to it. Maybe I can be ready to try again once I've settled here properly for my main social media fix and it's no longer this personal project that I can't live up to.

And to answer your first question (sorry), as I understand it, it's not federated but it is open source and available for others to make use of the protocol if they want.

Yes I've seen the Blåhaj instance. I'm just still getting my head around how everything works here and not sure yet what the advantage to signing up there in particular would be, when we're all seeing the same content and interacting with each other across instances anyway.

Something tells me that I might end up there once I get my head around the intricacies and politics here in the fediverse. But yesterday when I was having trouble with the first server I chose, I got the impression that lemmy.world is probably where I should start out as a noob, if I want an all round impression of what this platform has to offer and what it's all about.

They already cancelled its spinoff show Dead Boy Detectives. And from what I understand, Gaiman was pretty closely involved in the production of Sandman, so continuing the show without him probably wouldn't be so simple. I'd say, just assume it's dead and done now and save yourself the disappointment later.

Because they're evil, fascist, thought police for wanting to take away our god given right to tell entire groups of people that they're subhuman on the internet. Unlike those valiant and heroic free speech and freedom of expression warriors that burn and ban books, police other people's identities and cheer as a handful of conservative billionaires buy up all the free press and social platforms.

Edit: /s just in case.

Haha I was also banned there after what seems a lot to me like report brigading and have been on a tour of other platforms since. And I already used up my previous two strikes getting suspended for even dumber reasons and didn't even bother trying to appeal at that point. So there goes a 7 year old account (probably my 3rd Reddit account in total).

And it's funny because I used to be a lot more wild and free with what I said back when I first started on Reddit and never picked up a single suspension. But about two years ago, I felt almost like I was being singled out suddenly, and I got suspension after suspension for stupid shit, all within a few months of each other. I actually picked up the 3rd strike then too but managed to successfully appeal it, so I've been on the final warning since then.

I miss the little niche communities and could probably use workarounds to make a new account but part of me thinks it's maybe time to leave it behind. Besides, wouldn't surprise me if it's just a matter of time before they go on the same direction as Facebook and Twitter, if they aren't already silently heading that way. Their current CEO used to be moderator of the jailbait subreddit. So just like Facebook and Twitter, they're also run by a rich incel.

That's the funny thing. Usually I'm not that interested in making 'friends'. I spent a decade plus on Reddit not worrying what others think. But I got caught up in it on Bluesky, and it's like that sort of social media does something to my brain chemistry and so I should just stay away.

In a way, it seems to me like the microblogging format is all about validation from the start. Otherwise why else are people there putting up profiles like a shopfront and shitposting like clockwork all day. And I'm not after the kind of validation where someone says "wow you're so cool" (I'm using the word 'cool' loosely in this conversation, partly snarkily but also as a compliment to the people that were 'cool' in my opinion, if that makes sense), I'm not really interested in being 'cool' and I hate that it came across that way. I'm just saying that monologuing on a platform where no one gives a solitary shit is pretty sad.

As far as bullying went, I did have a bully for a little while when I was a kid (going into more detail is one for therapy lol) and after that I was mostly a loner that did my own thing. Not completely friendless but I've never really fit in anywhere and learnt to enjoy my own company. But I'll say again, platforms like Bluesky do something to my head. It feels a lot more personal than places like this.

But you didn't come off wrong, don't worry. It started well for me on Bluesky but for each day that passed there without the results or reception I was hoping for, the gremlins in my head got louder and louder.

Personally I just watch TNA these days. But even then, I skip through a lot of it at this point. But I settled with TNA because it's the one (semi) major promotion that doesn't expect you to watch three or four, three hour long shows a week, and keep up with PPVs and specials, and follow social media accounts.

And it's a revolving door, so you get to see a lot of up and comers on their way to bigger things and veterans that need to up their stock again and remind everyone they exist. Even Okada made a stop there not long ago. Plus, since I started watching, they've had crossovers with various small indies, Lucha Underground, AAA, NJPW, AEW and now WWE. They're the real forbidden door.

But I'm gonna be honest, I mostly watch for the ladies these days and skip most other stuff. I started watching in the era of undead morticians, pig farmers and plumbers so I get my kicks from the more creative, dramatic stuff. And I personally find that in men's wrestling, there's too many 'John Smith, the wrestler who wrestles good' types around these days, and not enough characters. Whereas women's wrestling is still chock full of interesting and unique characters and stories. In TNA, at least.

Most of their design choices from 8 onwards have been pretty questionable. To me, the way they just slapped the new UI on top of the old UI with different things and ways to access them in each, just comes across as seriously half assed. Like they're just not interested in putting the effort in anymore.

Even on Windows 11 (which I don't use personally but have worked with), they ruined the old right click menu by slapping a new menu on top of it that has half the options. So you need to click "show more options" every damn time. Instead of cleaning up or upgrading the old menu a bit and maybe offering the option of customising it, they just hid it with a new, useless menu. And still haven't learnt from Windows 8 because it still has that two different UI designs, half / half, new / old thing going for it.

As far as modern, nice looking, well designed desktop environments go, KDE puts Windows absolutely to shame these days.

I think I've mostly got to the bottom of it now. I'm sure there'll still be one or two more obstacles moving forward but I keep inching towards a seamless experience here. The first server I chose was pretty bad and with this server, turns out that the problem was that in language settings, "Undefined" was selected but "English" was deselected. Seems like you have to ctrl click to select more than one and I think the first time I went through my settings, I didn't realise that. Pretty sure that wasn't the case in the first server I joined but I might be mistaken. Honestly I question why "Undefined" is even listed there in the first place and isn't just a default, hidden setting. Seems very 'beta version' to me.

I'm liking what I'm seeing here though. So I'm definitely thinking that I'm going to power through any other issues I come across to stick around.

Very cool, thanks for pointing these out. I enjoy dishing out socio-political hot takes as much as the next person but I don't want it to swallow up my life. You've been very cool and helpful to me here, including on the other instance, so once again, thank you very much.

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