Yep! Me too. 3 is the lucky number here! Though I do suspect living with undiagnosed ADHD my whole life led up to the other two. I'm just a bundle of fun over here.
Mohkia
joined 2 years ago
My week has been okay. Work has been a bit chaotic running around trying to fix problems. At least it wasn't me that caused them this time and I was able to get brownie points for helping deal with it. My whole schedule was turned upside down and had to work a full week but I could use the extra money so I guess that is a win. I also found my security badge I lost last week for one of my accounts, so that was a relief.
I guess I'm just happy to have come out of this work week seemingly in a good place and that is a reason to celebrate. I've managed to take some steps towards figuring out passport and school related stuff too so it's been a good week mostly. We'll aside from the initial panic of not being able to find my badge. Literally saw it this morning randomly hiding in a box on top my dresser wedged in a corner. Not sure how it got there. I blame magic house elves. Anyways, it worked out as I needed it today so yay.
I feel called out by this statement. At least something is getting done though.
I most definatly notice a worsening of symptoms during the luteal phase. As well over the past couple years I'd say my symptoms have gotten significantly worse overall due to incoming peri which actually ended up getting me diagnosed as I just couldn't cope anymore. At least now I know why i have had the issues I've had over the years but now I'm super not excited about the hormonal roller coaster i am on. The Peri is still pretty mild so I just started back on birth control again to stabilize hormones so that's helping but instill have my bad days. And though I am glad I have the meds now and they work well usually, the hormonal chaos does make them less effective which is frusterating on those days.
Happy to hear the meds are helping though the emotion affect does not sound cool. Hope I didn't misunderstand. I feel you on the task overwhelm. The meds definitely helped me be more productive and to use the actual strategies I've been trying to learn to deal with it, but it's slow going. They help but they are not a magic fix all. I have come to the acceptance that it's going to take me a long time to get "caught up" if that's even possible and am learning to be okay with that. Years of not dealing with stuff can't just be completed overnight. Be kind to yourself and take it day by day, one step at a time. You got this.
It will be interesting to see how much/little has changed since I've been back. I grew up in a small town so definitely a different lifestyle to where I live now. I'm sorry to hear you haven't been able to travel back to your birth country. My sister in law(who I haven't met yet) is from Russia too. Hopefully some day you both will be able to go back and visit. I'm just thankful the only thing holding me back from visiting my home country is my own procrastination and avoidance of dealing with things. That and money.
I am hoping to travel back home(well my old home rather) to Canada to visit my family. Haven't been back since I moved away 12 years ago. I have time to do the passport though, I am waiting for summer when its warmer.
Last week was pretty good, only worked 3 days because of Thanksgiving. Ended up having dinner with my inlaws and then going to my best friends later that day. All in all I can't complain. It was nice having 4 days off, i managed to have a productive day of yard work yesterday, wanted to finish it today but that was not in the cards. not sure what my issue today is, spent most of the day in bed not feeling well, hopefully I feel better tomorrow as I have a full week at work next week.
I am also a bit frustersted at myself right now because I need to find a second reference for my passport application. I have not been great at keeping friends/acquaintances so I'm trying to figure that out so I can finally get my passport situated. Not really sure what to do so I've been avoiding it.
So yeah, my week wasn't too bad, aside from me feeling under the weather today and the passport issues and also trying to figure out how I'm going to balance school and work come January. But I will get it sorted. At least I'm finally trying to get my crap together. It's been one hell of a year but I am coming out the other side better off than when I went into it last january.
I just don't even bother with the Christmas lights. Though i do feel rather called out on the melted pumpkin. I should probably throw that in the compost.
That is so demeaning! Fragile? Like what? If you have adhd it can make every day things stressful and difficult and dont evem gdt me atarted on self image. I would definitely get a second opinion. Could be you have it, could be you don't but at least find someone that has more to offer for an explanation than that. It's exhausting and nerve-wracking for sure but don't give up.
Thanks for sharing this. I didn't have a name for this feeling until I was diagnosed with ADHD and started learning more about it and all that comes along with it. Though I would not wish this on anyone else it is good to know sometimes that we are not the only ones going through these struggles.