Carbonizer

joined 8 months ago
[–] Carbonizer 3 points 1 month ago (1 children)

I was one of those ADHD kids who was socially awkard but excelled in class too. I was (and still am) probably awkward because I was at best ostracized and at worst bullied by every kid in school, but it is what it is.

[–] Carbonizer 1 points 1 month ago

From only reading the headline, my first takeaway was that he pushed her off. Glad to see that wasn't the case!

[–] Carbonizer 13 points 2 months ago (12 children)

Definitely better. I play tabletop RPGs (D&D, Pathfinder), and technology has allowed us to do all sorts of things that would be challenging in a physical medium. We can create detailed maps with lighting effects, sound effects, and triggers. A lot of the more tedious parts of the game such as initiative and health tracking get automated, and applying damage and healing is as easy as clicking a button while having a unit selected. And to top it all off, we're not restricted to playing with the people around us and physically getting together. You can sit at home in your PJs and just hop into a Discord call to play with your friends. I'm truly grateful for it because I was able to continue playing Tabletop RPGs with my sister when she moved 1300 miles away to live with her then boyfriend, now husband.

[–] Carbonizer 1 points 2 months ago

Look at me, engaging with this deleted post. How silly

[–] Carbonizer 8 points 2 months ago

And then he spoke not a word more.

[–] Carbonizer 10 points 2 months ago

Sugma balls! Thanks for playing.

[–] Carbonizer 4 points 2 months ago (1 children)

My 2013 Forte wasn't eligible for the upgrade :(

[–] Carbonizer 5 points 3 months ago

Because I have very poor social skills, and every time I have opened up to somebody in the past, they've taken advantage of me and hurt me. It's just more comfortable and stable being alone at this point.

[–] Carbonizer 4 points 3 months ago

No, a game crammed with psychological tricks to keep players addicted while milking them dry through microtransactions.

[–] Carbonizer 9 points 3 months ago

I feel so incredibly attacked by this meme

[–] Carbonizer 4 points 3 months ago

TW: suicide, depression

I'm at my highest, coming out of my 20s which were my lowest point. I struggled with undiagnosed, unmedicated ADHD, and the depression and anxiety that accompanied it. I couldn't hold a job. Hell, things got so bad that I wrapped a belt around my throat and tried to end it all. But I survived. And eventually, things got better. All it took was a little support from my sister and her husband, and their belief that I wasn't a broken human being.

Now, I've held a job for the last year. I'll be interviewing for a promotion next week. I'm in the process of getting diagnosis and treatment for my mental health issues. I've dropped more than 120 lbs of excess weight in the past year (350->227). I'm going to be starting college online part-time at the beginning of August. I've changed my outlook on life, and have an easier time managing the symptoms of depression and anxiety. Sure, I'm a 31 year old virgin who has only ever gone on a single date (which went disastrously), but I'm not too worried about that. If I keep focusing on myself and becoming the person I want to be, I'll pull somebody in one day.

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