Transfem

To me, it's feeling assured in myself and my ability to enrich the lives of people I love. It's practicing self care and building self-confidence. It's being there for my friends when they need me. It's feeling connected to my womanhood, to my inner sense of self and my feelings. It's feeling confident and powerful.

I used to feel very ashamed of my own femininity. My experience with masculinity was fragmented, disconnected from my inner sense of self. I felt cut off from who I actually was, so it failed to resonate with my identity. I felt feminine when I could express my femininity without facing judgment or bullying. When I could smile extra wide and wear girly clothes. In middle school, I felt feminine when my friends would take me shopping behind my mom's back to buy clothes. When they'd help me do makeup. When strangers would gender me as a girl, which they often did at that time of my life.

The femininity I felt when I was younger had a lot more to do with what I was actively being denied. It was all the things forbidden from me. It helped me understand my gender identity. And I would say early on in transition, my femininity was still rooted in those forbidden things and reclaiming them for myself. 8 years 10 months in though and femininity has changed a lot for me. It's less rooted in specific individual things and more rooted in myself. It's rooted in doing things that make me feel happy and self-confident.

Honestly, I don’t really have any way to describe it. Sometimes that feeling just hits and I feel particularly effeminate. Most other times I’m just kinda existing, not feeling any particular way.

Masculinity and femininity aren’t at all necessary for gender identity, though. There’s plenty of masculine women and feminine men, and all manners of those in-between and outside.

All that matters is how you feel comfortable identifying and expressing yourself. Do what you want, dress how you want, act how you want. Gender is just a label, don’t overthink it.

You do you

I think older trans women (as in those who transitioned over 40 and over rather than those who transitioned in teens/20s and got old later) had to deal with the brunt of completely untreated and possibly completely misunderstood/unknown dysphoria for a lot longer, they likely have a pretty complex relationship to it that forms a large part of their identity, especially through any and all coping mechanisms (maybe wanting long hair, cross dressing, etc.) and the shame and possibly social punishment that comes with that, especially in their babytrans phase.

For me it's meh, I don't even remember any other way anymore and I'm a pretty late transitioner by today's standards in my late teens, I don't really understand gender, feminine things used to freak me out as a kid, I primarily experience sex dysphoria, I present andro most days.

I feel more feminine when I can express myself openly and freely. When I can choose to dress in clothing I feel that not only looks better on my body, but also emphasizes my comfort over all. When I can choose to put on makeup and nail polish to not only enhance my own 'confidence in' and 'appreciation of' myself, but put other people at ease, look nice and put-together, and express myself in quiet ways with how I decorate my body that allow me to show my creativity, spirit and personality.

I feel more feminine when I can connect with people and help them feel better, do better and live better. When I can express my love freely and openly and not be derided as seeking sex or pleasure for the immediate moment. When I can explore my social relationships with people and develop and grow them to their maximums without being accused of ill intent, or agenda.

Undoubtedly there are deeper depths of femininity I have yet to explore; and I look forward to doing so, to surrendering myself to femininity as much as I feel I can as I transition and become what I should always have been.

If I don't talk about physicals norms (nails, curls, hair). I would say I'm listening more my feelings. I'm interacting with my feelings.

I'm true with my self , or I try. Sometimes when I'm alone I became eggs again sometimes...

I'm more open minded, listening more,

Sorry if I didn't understood the meaning and I'm not in the subject, in case I didn't understand lol

This is such a complicated question I feel you may as well have asked 'What makes a woman/man'.

I guess, to me - femininity means being allowed access to my own vulnerability, to be allowed (or to be expected societally) to emphasize appearance, to be expected to appear frail or to take up little space.

However I also understand that these things are more or less just bullshit societal expectations, and that feminine women and feminine people in general are allowed to be loud, brash, messy, and strong individuals.

But to me femininity is the performance I feel pressured to act out in order to be seen the way I want to be seen. Maybe in the future my perspective will change, but at this moment I personally do not feel 'allowed' to be my rightful gender unless I perform the way I'm expected to perform.

The easiest answer would be "being like other women" but I don't want to do that, so idk ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I'm still kinda early on, but I suspect I'll take the route of not caring.

I suppose this question is basically, "what are my goals?" I consider myself fairly feminine in mind, but I lament how unfeminine I am in body. In mind, I am emotional and empathic. I deeply care about other people and their feelings and I feel a lot, but I find myself unable to express it without inebriants.

What's feminine to me is the ability to be emotionally available, freely expressive, caring, and nurturing. I don't want to be tough and stoic. I don't want to be strong and unwavering. I want to be flowing and expressive. I don't want to uphold masculine expectations because emotionally, I feel trapped inside my own head. The main issue is that I don't yet hold the keys to the cell. I wear a mask whether I want to or not and I live inside my own head.

As for expression, I want to be small, graceful, and delicate. I want my body to flow in movement and shape just as I want my emotions and mannerisms to flow from within me. I want my wardrobe to be complex and for my outfits to match my internal state. My current wardrobe is so boring: it's just the same cuts of shirts and pants and I'll only ever find more of the same off the rack at the department store. It should be vibrant and varied. Without going into detail, there are a few pain points on my body that need to be addressed. I guess it's a roundabout way to say that I want the outside to match the inside.

I also want to be allowed to feel vulnerable and for that to be acceptable. I'm not good at being a man because... I'm not. And I shouldn't be expected to be if I don't want to. Nobody would expect me to be a carpenter just because I own a hammer, so why should this be different? I hope that answers your question. My neurospicy brain likes to tangent and ramble a bit.

Listen I transitioned because I hated not having tits and because having a penis felt wrong.

I’ve found myself getting more feminine as I get older though. I rejected it a lot when I was younger (been transitioning as long as you actually and am also post transition). I still have my firm feminist stances like I won’t ever wear makeup to work, but I wear it going out now, just not because I feel I have to but because I do like the self expression with it. I’ve found that I feel most myself when I embrace being a large badass femme. And it’s when I feel most confident. And I think part of why I feel this way is because I’ve always rejected letting it be forced on me and because I’ve always found femininity to be beautiful and powerful looking. I also think that starting transition at 20 and being heavily involved in lesbian communities influenced it. My conversation with femininity in myself has always been spoken through my lesbian identity just as much as my trans identity.

I love this thread - so many thoughtful people here. This is something I've been thinking about quite a bit recently - really just starting to question all of the assumptions I've been making my whole life about how one should think about the world, and how one should be.

I'm enjoying allowing myself to be vulnerable. I'm enjoying being able to be deliberate about my identity and how I project myself on the world, and to use that to care for and help others. I'm also enjoying feeling that it's legitimate for me to care for, be compassionate towards and love myself.

I believe femininity and masculinity are more of personality categories than anything else. Both having a beautiful bits and ugly bits, in femininity the beautiful is a purpensety (idk how to spell that) to care for others in a personal sense (ie caring and nurturing) whereas the positive aspect of masculinity is an inclination towards more material caring (ie protection and providing). The dark sides are related to the positive, with femininity struggling against an inclination to be emotionally manipulative while masculinity struggles to not be physically abuse and physicalyl and emotionally abandoning.

I believe it is important that an individual male female or individual somewhere in the middle determine what they are inclination is towards and focus on improving their positive impact on others and decreasing their negative impact

Also huge disclaimer the traits described are generalizations and do not apply to everyone

Also also, societal rules on femininity or masculinity are really stupid and arbitrary