Transfem
A community for transfeminine people and experiences.
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Some helpful links:
- The Gender Dysphoria Bible // In depth explanation of the different types of gender dysphoria.
- Trans Voice Help // A community here on blahaj.zone for voice training.
- LGBTQ+ Healthcare Directory // A directory of LGBTQ+ accepting Healthcare providers.
- Trans Resistance Network // A US-based mutual aid organization to help trans people facing state violence and legal discrimination.
- TLDEF's Trans Health Project // Advice about insurance claims for gender affirming healthcare and procedures.
- TransLifeLine's ID change Library // A comprehensive guide to changing your name on any US legal document.
- Gender Spectrum // Resources for youth, parents and family, educators, mental health professionals and faith leaders.
Support Hotlines:
- The Trevor Project // Web chat, phone call, and text message LGBTQ+ support hotline.
- TransLifeLine // A US/Canada LGBTQ+ phone support hotline service. The US line has Spanish support.
- LGBT Youthline.ca // A Canadian LGBT hotline support service with phone call and web chat support. (4pm - 9:30pm EST)
- 988lifeline // A US only Crisis hotline with phone call, text and web chat support. Dedicated staff for LGBTQIA+ youth 24/7 on phone service, 3pm to 2am EST for text and web chat.
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confused is normal. Our society makes this into a WAY more complicated and stressful thing than it should be.
It's fine to be in the middle. Non-binary is a thing. It's fine to be like "this dangly bit needs to go, but I still feel kinda butch".
Yeah a LOT of transfemmes spend tons of energy going "well, maybe I'm just " and then, eventually, end up going "nah, I was just not ready to accept myself being full-on female"
current day example: F1nnst3r. How many years did they cross-dress while being 100% convinced they were "a guy"? Even if you're not a fan of them, it's amazing to watch their slow, but very public, transformation into accepting their transness. Pretty sure they'll eventually end up at "yeah, I'm a woman" (and a femmy one at that), but like you they're not sure right now.
Again, that's not to say that anyone should feel any less valid if their personal definition of self ends up being somewhere between the two ends of the gender spectrum.
This is going to sound stupid, but bear with me. There are ultra-butch lesbians. There are ultra-femme lesbians. There are even some ultra-butch straight women. None of them are any more or less "woman".
Now, note that I didn't specify trans or cis. You probably assumed I meant cis. Take a moment to ponder why. It's 100% irrelevant to those statements, and yet, we're dealing with so much societal BS around gender that basically everyone's going to default to assuming "cis" until they've been simmering in "funky gender stew" for a while. ;)
Our society doesn't like trans folks because they break the default mold. It breaks their effing brains when after transition you aren't shoving yourself into that mold on the opposite side. So, part of your figuring out what your gender is, is learning to see that 💩 and stop letting it tell you what you "should" be.
Personally, I've found peace being the tomboy / butch lesbian I've always felt like. It took a long time to stop thinking i had to be femme despite it not feeling right. I don't pass well, but I'm happy inside, and I have friends who love me, and that's what matters.
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Side note: it sounds like you may be under 18. If so, or even if you're very close, I can not emphasize how important it is to do everything in your power to get puberty blockers and/or anti-androgens. Testosterone will absolutely brutalize your body in ways that you will be paying for emotionally and financially for years. I'm guessing it's probably started as it's pretty normal to start pondering gender and sexuality when puberty hits. You don't need to go full HRT, but give yourself the the option to stay as physically femmy as possible until you decide which way you're going. You can always unblock the testosterone later and let it start having its way with your bones and hair. ;)
I'd caution against black-market hormones right now. There are way too many anti-trans folks who have absolutely no morals and are willing to give you terrible things that will hurt you.
"The dangly bit needs to go" is very accurate. Bulky and hairy little blob of flesh, that thing. Can't even sit comfortably without it making its presence known.
I'm already 18 and puberty pretty much ended for me (it started very early for some reason). Anyway, this was really helpful comment, thanks.