Could not have said it better.

My personal take includes coping with the fact that some in your life who you thought cared and realising they don't. (At least not in a good way) don't and your life is better off without them.

I have also come to the realisation it's having an impact on my kids and granddaughter so have decided to to give my kids the unedited rant I put into the start of the month in the hopes to let them understand who and why I am. If I am lucky it will break the cycle before I find myself in another loop losing family both before and after me.

Unrelated Personally, I want to thank olap for doing this. Over January wesa small place but its rare to see the care on an open Internet (I haven't figured out how to tag people yet)