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Growing up I was surrounded by so many people with undiagnosed mental illness mine seemed trivial.
(self.showerthoughts)
A "Showerthought" is a simple term used to describe the thoughts that pop into your head while you're doing everyday things like taking a shower, driving, or just daydreaming. A showerthought should offer a unique perspective on an ordinary part of life.
I mentioned that i had concerns about myself when i was about 12. It wasn't dismissed, but it was clear that attempting to address it at that time would be too difficult. I keep it put away as much as i can, only mentioning the intrusive thoughts when i can play it as a joke - not sure if that feels better or worse. After 40 years, I'm finally beginning to recognize the tendency towards self sabotage but still struggle with not giving in to it.
May i ask what illness this is? I recognize this tendency
Never went to the doc for it. It's just the stuff that rolls around in my head.