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Growing up I was surrounded by so many people with undiagnosed mental illness mine seemed trivial.
(self.showerthoughts)
A "Showerthought" is a simple term used to describe the thoughts that pop into your head while you're doing everyday things like taking a shower, driving, or just daydreaming. A showerthought should offer a unique perspective on an ordinary part of life.
In my case it is depression. There is a bit a of anxiety and ADHD mixed in to keep it fun. Self-medicating with drugs/alcohol makes it difficult to go too long without causing life problems.
Although I'm currently down, I'm not having thoughts of suicide, and have not for about 4 months.
I have a huge fear of sharing those thoughts because I know I will likely get 5150 again. Hospitalization costs $$$$.