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Even ICD11 isn't known here. All kinds of physicians still diagnose on the outdated ICD 10 catalog. "Autism spectrum? Never heard of! You have ADHD? Then you cannot have autism!" 🤦

In fact, the hospitals with an autism dept cannot diagnose ADHD and those with an ADHD ambulance cannot diagnose ASD.

And forget to ask about DSM. That's even less known than ICD 11 here.

Psychiatrists out here still hold ASD for a schizoid disorder, like they missed out decades of research. It's depressing.

But by extending the deadline, I have to stop working again, until it comes close.

That's fine, I can ask you again.

But what really annoys me are those which name I still cannot accoustically understand after the 4th time asking. They most probably do this on purpose, since I can understand each word they say, except for their name.

At first, my anxieties became present to me, so I could work on them. Weed makes me think about my life, about things that bother me deep inside. It made me do further investigations. I had (to a point still have) to reprocess my life. It turned out, I'm traumatized because of people constantly refusing or bullying me in my past, because I never fitted in. And I had no clue, why.

I used to keep distance to people and be a loner, until recently. Weed broke up some of these habits. I got my feelings back, after I used to refuse showing any emotion.

I also learned, I have issues listening. I often changed my mind spontaneously without noticing - now I do notice and I learned to self-regulate better. I also didn't know noise (the overwhelm of too many sounds or voices) overloads my senses, and that's what triggers my aggressive behaviour or let me run away sometimes.

Since I started smoking, I do easier meet people who understand me. That's also when someone at a party suggested I look 100% like having ADHD and I should do the test.

I also noticed another effect when microdosing at work: It helps me focus and it temporarily brings back the energy when being exhausted from work. (This depends on the strain, of course. Amnesia or White Widow work great here). However, this comes with the risk of burning myself out, so I do it only when necessary.

They usually show me the door out. But this is still better than doing all they would demand.

There are two things that really help(ed) me:

1. Starting to smoke weed daily, while moving to another city: It made me find out what has always beed wrong with me, and so I came to the diagnosis.

2. Writing everything down, in a way my brain understands. I use a project management app, called Logseq, for that.

That's exactly my aim now. I overworked myself in past. Employers out here are living in the past, demanding 40h weeks. This really broke me several times with burnout depression. Now, in the job interviews, I tell them all that I will not work more than 35h, better: 32.

Not the smartphones themselves are addictive, but all these annoying social apps, advertisements and notifications are.

There are ways around this. Kids should learn how to use their phones for managing their lives. And actually, they do at some point - to a degree.

Simple answer: Majora's Mask is the best.

Q1W or Evo series. All of them are decent lights.

They all recommend SanLight lights over here. I don't have personal grow experience, yet, but I've seen the setups and results with my own eyes. These lights are top notch.