Sending you positive thoughts. It won't always be as bad as it is today - that's hard to see when you're suffering from it though.
I hope you can catch a break, take some time to just tread water as you can.
Lean on friends, and find anything to help keep your head above water. It's okay to be struggling - it's okay to be having a hard time. Look for the people who can help you get through things. It's good to talk to people about how you are feeling.
Awesome game - they've been doing great and regular updates the whole early access