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the following is a thread in six parts...

1/yesterday, while riding in the truck with dad, he suggested that he might get an account on Twitter and plead Mr Musk to give him $100k. i thought maybe he was joking, but this suggestion was in earnest. dad, you are very close to the solution....

2/1-tax the shit out of Musk. 2-apply that money to social programs which provide solutions to the basic needs of all Americans.

3/dear dad. you are right that Musk has enough money that $100k is a pittance to him. you are right that you have needs that deserve to be met.

4/you are wrong to imagine that capitalists will EVER give up their wealth willingly (even if you ask pretty please on Twitter).

5/you are wrong to think that you are the ONLY person who deserves to have their basic needs met.

6/welcome to "the struggle", dad. ♥️

as a self professed techno snob, i expected that to be garbage and instead it was accurate and enjoyable. thanks!

in my mid-life adulthood, it has been a major revelation for me to discover that my most enduring personality trait is that i will always seek to end any interaction as quickly as possible, with as little damage as possible.

for my entire life, as soon as i can get get out, i do get out.

i watched s2e1 yesterday and it was a boring getting-the-gang-back-together.

i have high expectations for season 2 but...

routine!

a couple of years ago i found myself in a similar rutt as yours... all day in bed consuming various media with the lights off. no physical activity.

looking back over the past couple of years, the first step was establishing a very simple routine. physically GET UP out of bed upon waking and turn on the lights! commit to a simple physical workout... 15 push-ups first thing. put your shoes on and go OUTSIDE for a short walk.

very simple changes. one simple thing at a time. but stay consistent and allow yourself to FEEL SATISFIED with the consistency.

add new actions to the routine slowly and deliberately. always be kind and supportive of yourself.

eventually, you will get to the point where you can trust yourself to follow thru with seeing a doctor who may be helpful with managing your physical symptoms. going to the doctor may be a good intermediate goal to look forward to while you are building your basic routine.

this should be a self-reinforcing process. it will probably take many months and years to find your own rhythm. but every single day, remember to acknowledge and be satisfied with building slowly and consistently.

good luck buddy. i think you will be okay.

i quit squid game 2 midway through ep5. it really was that bad.

this album (and also POST) were so formative for me.

are you squirreling cash/goods away? i mean, it's gonna end someday, right? got to look after yourself, girl.

the following image is the Mathematical Abstract for the book Quantum Theoretic Machines by August Stern

i honestly have no idea what any of it means, but i read the book (it's fascinating) and remembered that the square root of zero is defined in his theory.

interesting, no?

you seem like such a great guy. 🙏

question. were the thinking-machines inside of the worm which Desmond Hart was swallowed up in? in Valya's vision at the end it shows Desmond getting swallowed up and then he is being operated upon.

so like, the machines are inside of the worm?

to an extent i agree. but within the scope of this single season, which had a hard time getting off the ground, i was pleased with the outcome.