Me too. I started smoking cannabis and drinking alcohol until I got sick with schizophrenia; it was then that I had to stop using cannabis. Now I occasionally drink beer; but above all, I consume a lot of caffeine, in my case in the form of energy drinks.
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I have read "The State and Revolution." Now I am reading "What Is to Be Done?" Both books by Lenin.
I read in Spanish because it is the language I am most proficient in. Sometimes, I also read in Catalan.
Right now I am reading "Hegemony and Socialist Strategy" by Ernesto Laclau and Chantal Mouffe. Just a few days ago, I finished the book "Workers' Councils" by Anton Pannekoek (5/5).
I also think that I don't have schizophrenia. When I was diagnosed, I was scared. I was afraid because I have always been an activist; with everything I've seen about police brutality, I thought it would happen to me. I thought I was being pursued by the police forces. I believe that paranoia is somewhat logical. On the other hand, I think my negative symptoms are more a consequence of my anxiety and depression. Since I was a child, around 13 or 14 years old, I have had social anxiety and a tendency towards sadness. I don't believe that at 13 I was already sick with schizophrenia. I have never had hallucinations (neither auditory nor visual). Just "logical" paranoia and self-referential thoughts (which could be caused by social phobia). The issue is that since I started taking antipsychotics, I began to notice symptoms of irritable bowel syndrome. What makes me doubt is that there are people who have "denial of illness" and have a worse prognosis; I hope I am not one of those people. Nevertheless, I follow my treatment to the letter. Now I am fine; the only thing that makes it difficult for me to lead a normal daily life is the irritable bowel syndrome. From here, I want to send encouragement to all of you who are in the same situation. We will get through this with struggle, I am sure. A hug.
PS: I apologize if my message contains any errors. My native language is Spanish. This message is written with the help of an AI for accurate translation.