QuietStorm

So ive been thinking about using godot or gdevelp but im not too sure if those are teh right ones for a beginner to use. im not sure why but i want to make a video game, i dont even have an ideas but i want to make one for some reason. once i get a better computer which will be in a few days hopefully i think i might use unity, maybe.

i could use suggestions, advice, tips, you can even share a story if you want to. ive made a few posts before and everyone says to download blender to make things with and then use godot becasue its open source and low end.

So im about to get a new laptop, its no the best but it will be diffrent, currently i have a desktop so a laptop i will be able to move around with.

Its a windows laptop with 12gb of ram, 250 storage, so im hoping its good becasue i got this laptop on the cheaper end becasue its refurbished acording to amazon.

anyways what are some of the first things to do with a laptop besides setting it up and what are some cool uses, i have some ideas on how i might use the laptop but i want to hear what yall have to say.

What are the best fediverse alternatives to youtube? and what makes them so good, what are the rules? are they all open source?

ive been wanting to start gaming videos but youtube is youtube you know.

I feel very lost and confused, all i do is dream but i just cant bring myself to do things or i "rage out". Im a highschooler and i feel like nobody understand my like im a shadow i know there are other like me but i seem to never be able to find them. i have meds and i recently started consuling but i just feel like i need to do more or somethign is misisng. i tend to be hard on myself and idk why but i want to make a game still even though i cant code for the life of me and i dont even have any ideas. its like some form of extreme writters block.

im pretty limited in life and i was always treated like an outcast and i have autism, dylexia, possibly adhd and i want to scream and cry but it like i have no mouth,words, or tears. i want my life to be better and i have many dreams but im just not sure where to start or even what to do, and this all might change soon-ish like my dreams. i hate being depressed i just want to be happy but i keep having moods and hormones and random hornyness i hate it, i cant stop thinking about my past mistakes aswell.

also please do not dm me keep everything in the comments and dont suggest i call so and so.

I feel like my life and how i act is always a "meh" thingy, if that makes sense. i just feel like something is missing or im lacking in life and i tend to complain alot online, but why?

i want to be creative/get my ideas out there but im not sure how to aprouch it or do so. im going thru a hard persiod in my life with dealing with emotions, mood swings, hormones, and life.

Things like movies, books, games, songs, etc just what was the best one you even experienced that you kinda wish you could do for the first time again, also what made it so good?

So is it possible to buy or create/buy a pc for around 100$ or around that, im looking for something with more that 8 ram and can play some modern games, not all but some, and i dont mean like AAA games, also ive really been wanting to try stable diffusion just to see what it can do.

is it possible to get a modern or descent pc for around 100$, also im a highschooler and ive been saving my money my whole life i got around 200$ but im cheap and i would like to have some leftover incase anything happens. i dont have a job but im been saving from b-days holidays and the coins i found on the sidewalks, should i try to save up more?

I want to have fun bu ti also wan tmoney and im not sure which one to focus emor eon becasue i need money but im also bored.

i have autism, dxylexyia, depression, and possibly adhd also my allergys are bad and i take meds for most of this stuff. sense im depressed i feel like i stink at mos tthings or i lack something, or just something is missing. my family says i cant get a job intill a get thru highschool but im not sure if that will happen, so i might have to do a sidehustle of sorts. im very limited like my pc isint "modern" i have derpession and whatnot but i do want to do something while i still can, but im not sure.

sorry if this become too long, also i tend to post content like this alot but i seem to only listen to myself also i hate hormones and mood swings. i feel like my family dosent understand me even if i just screamed at them i feel they still woudent understand anything.

I tend to dream big alot and i tend to want thing sinstantly with this age of tech and it can be annoying at times. i even reaserch thing sbut never do them i wonder if ther eis a way to dream small and what might that look like?

like i want to start a youtube channel with my low-end pc and my fmaily says it dosent hurt to try but im not sure, i want to do gaming but everyone does gaming and im very limited with my pc, etc i could go on but i wont.

my interst will probrably change to something tommorow which is annoying.

Im honestly scared to get into pirating but some things are just way too overpriced. i know theres the piract bay and such sites but it requires torrecting and a vpn but i cant afford a vpn so is there like a direct downloads version of the pirete bay or a safer alternative? im looking to get a few peices of media by the way.

also how do you all store so much media without issues or getting into trouble? also am i aksing the wrong place by chance?

i know there is internet archive but i find it hard to find what you are looking for and kinda clunky.

even if its just one goal or dream that you achived and such, how did you do it and how did iy make you feel?

im honestly struggling to achive things i want becasue i tend to dream big so how did you all do it?

So im failing highschooler and im not sur ewhy but i want to make money like i want to earn it by doing things and becasue i have nothing better to do, well besides school.

I hav ealot of items but it manly junk i no longer use and im jus tnot sure how i might sell or what i could provide.

also i cant do yard work because there is barley any grass wher ei live and its super hot outside and my parents dont want me doing yard work for said reasons.