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Lol @ a place to park their bicycle!
Yeah it's tragic that we are already so vulnerable and then add an affliction that you didn't bring to yourself nor did God put one in your life. It really gets interesting then for sure and you're right... it's enough to really crush mostly anyone and especially if it's a repeated assault for a long period of time.
In saying that, I feel I managed well enough. I've seen people throw their lives away from much less pressures in life. It's criminal but we wonder why people go on killing sprees and do all kinds of evil. I believe that whoever governs our freedoms in society is to be held responsible ultimately. Hard to live an honest life when every truth you live is offensive to mostly everyone else. No use in having integrity unless you're a really brave soul. Oh and don't ever try to love others or show compassion because they'll think you have a mental illness.
I've learned over the years that you can't trust anyone. Mostly everyone is fake while wearing a smile and acting some good kinda way. Or you have those who just have given up and they deliberately take their hate out on you. Seems to me, everything is backwards from the way it ought to be yanno?
I am happy with your reproach to the situation you are in. You seem like a really awesome person and always remember that your circumstances don't define you no matter how hurtful it may be. Continue to try to rise above it like you are currently. I've really enjoyed our conversations and again, it also is a help to me to be able to be here for you but you help me in other ways too because I'm not really used to people being nice or receptive of me simply because I care about others.
I am in a much better place than I was before and I'm thankful for my new family. My girlfriend and her mom has severe ADHD and that has been interesting many times but I'm slowly helping both of them get a better handle on life for themselves. It takes a lot of love, patience, forgiveness and time. Especially when trying to articulate things and word things properly in the right moment without causing any further harm. But my girlfriend, I've been with her for almost 6yrs now and she's come a long way. She's figuring it out little by little. We don't have as many accidents as we used to and she doesn't respond to me in a hurtful way as she used to.
She almost got me killed once for running her mouth about something that wasn't even relevant to one of our troublesome neighbors. The guy almost shot us but instead he nearly shot himself. Haven't seen him since but his girlfriend or wife, whoever she is... she's a real evil but we're doing our best to stay out of her way. The police don't even care about the situation and even tried accusing me. The lady is delusional. But it's whatever. I'll leave her be until she provokes a needed response accordingly.
I'm so sick and tired of having to be put in situations like this. Make no mistake, I don't bother with anyone and mostly every reaction I have with the general public is kind. The world has gone batty though and I ultimately hope God will rip me from this earth. I'm definitely not in agreement with all the Tom foolery going on.
But just like you, I try to keep going and it helps to help still and it's nice to meet another person on the internet who understands these things and aren't afraid to speak up. It's refreshing!
No worries. It's alright that you don't believe what I do but there's no need to berate or mock what I believe. I'm still very much a human and I have human problems just like anyone else. I'm not perfect based on my belief of God and I don't go around telling people they're going to hell because they've been mostly a horrible person.
Seems like you're really upset with Christians? Yeah me too... I'll even go as far to say that I hate them and I don't believe for one second that they really know or believe anything they claim. They are self-serving pieces of crap in my opinion but as for me, I do know God is real and if it weren't for him, I wouldn't have made it through such a bullshit life as I have.
I'm sorry you don't want me here. Didn't mean to upset anyone and I can respect you as a person still... even if you don't believe what I do. In the same way, if this is how an atheist looks on social media then what is the difference in your thoughts towards me and my belief if this is how you conduct yourself?
I guess you put everyone who talks about God in the same box. Such a shame! It's like me saying that I think people that wear shoes are delusional.
When I die, bury me upside-down so everyone can kiss my ass goodbye.
If you do, please take video of your experience so we can all get a good laugh.
Well I can certainly tell you that people like that will surely rot in hell for an eternity. So don't worry about it. You can't fix it. I hate this evil crap too.. the world has gone absolutely bonkers!
Not sure I understand this. I mean, I don't agree with the whole trans gender thing but nobody should be executed for it. If that is what this pastor means then he definitely doesn't belong to God.
It's nice to have met you and thanks for allowing me the opportunity to be here for you!
So talking about not fighting anymore... a few years ago I was stuck on the streets in my home state. I lived in a dead pine forest on federal property for a little more than a year. I had a tent and a few other things I needed to go with it. In the middle of summer, I became ill so I decided that it might be better for me to be closer to people just incase something happened to me. I figured maybe someone would get me help if I needed it.
People didn't like seeing me around at all. I had constant police interaction multiple times a day and some of them were very rude! I kinda gave up because I never bothered anyone and I kept my distance from everyone as best I could. So yeah, I was constantly being harassed by shitty people. To the point I told the police that there's nothing I can do about it and if I'm so much of a problem then fix it. Told them that they could put me in jail or take me to a mental hospital but I'd eventually come back. One cop even tried to fight me but I stood up to him and his police buddy prevented a really bad accident from happening that night. I no longer gave a shit..
I took showers in the local grocery store while jamming out to gospel music. Started sleeping wherever at a shopping mall... kept telling the police that they can't continue to harass me just because some loser didn't want me around. People are horrible and especially when they are better off than you... they think it's alright to try and hurt you because you're nothing to them or society.
But guess what? The police chief came to talk to me. He brought his wife with him and also a couple deputies. They put me up in a motel and gave me a little bit of money. They also found me a place to stay for a while... was some Mexican dude with a Mexican restaurant. Was really cool they helped me and I was thankful but life happened and I decided it was time to move on and still to this day, nobody knew why I left but I couldn't work, I was too weak from not having enough food or proper shelter and still was very sick. It wasn't worth explaining the issue with anyone so I ghosted everyone.
It's always been like this for me. I just sorta go where the wind blows yanno. I never know if I'm gonna be alright but it's whatever and today is no different. Our lives are precious but we're disposable to those who do all kinds of evil. It is what it is... my motto is, when I die... bury me upside down so everyone can kiss my ass goodbye lol
Well. It's still progress... I'm glad you're still trying to work it out for yourself. I think a lot of people would probably have given up by now. So on that front I hope you feel a little better.
For me, I had no choice but to keep cracking away at adversity no matter the result. It's not easy and mostly in my experience atleast was exhausting but nonetheless, things seemed to have worked out mostly. I'm still not anywhere close to have things in place in which I desire fully but it's a lot better than what it was before.
Hopefully you continue to find motivation and strength through all this. I'm inspired by your willingness to continue to be honest. I know it isn't easy.
Well, I've had CPTSD since early childhood. Never liked crowds much. Became homeless for 20+ years and I decided to do street ministry to force myself to interact with people no matter how tough it was for me mentally. This was something I did constantly for years and while it's helped me in many ways I still have little desire to be around people and I still kinda find life to be pointless.
But a benefit from all this. I found my true identity and today, I'm at peace with myself even though this strange movie keeps replaying over and over again. It's still uncomfortable for me but I have a much better grip on it than I used to. So I don't have episodes that last too long even though they're quite intense still.
I'm currently playing battlebit.
My girlfriend, her mother and several family members have adhd. It's quite the experience for me beings I don't have it but I do understand it much better than I used to so I navigate the relationship rather well now... but people with adhd fatigue much quicker than people without it. The brain is being overworked and the mental becomes physical.
If you're exhausted, you sometimes don't communicate the right things, you won't normally finish an activity you started and you quite literally feel tired all the time. The depression is like buying bullets with the +p... it's more powerful but in the context we're talking about... the adhd seems more potent or concentrated to the point you become unaware of it often times than not.
Always seeking approval and or justification is your natural habitat... you want to be loved, you're insecure and you just hate that you ended up with this to work through or worry about. When you hurt someone, you typically hurt more because you didn't mean to hurt anyone. Often, you'll lie about something in order to protect your vulnerability or to avoid conflict of any sort.
This is what I have experienced with an adult where their ADHD has gone unmanaged and unnoticed but we're tearing down the walls and she's learning to communicate better as well as becoming more attentive to her condition while accepting it and working a little to make it a bit easier so it works for her and I...
In my experience with her for almost 6yrs now.... once I stopped seeing her as a threat, and when I stopped allowing her to constantly fumble the ball, things started improving but she had to understand and see what she was doing and how it effects people around her and even the responsibilities as an adult. For me, I had to learn how to not speak out of turn, and I had to help her find understanding without becoming insulting and it required me to be more supportive and loving before she started making an effort to cope on her own and willing to change some things that weren't healthy for the both of us.
This is the short version but hopefully you guys and gals understand what I'm sharing.
If you or someone you love has adhd. Wear it proudly! You are awesome and you are important and play a vital role in society. You go through things others don't think about or feel so don't give anyone the power to force you to live under a rock. If they were wise, they could learn quite a lot of good things about you, even if you can't say a whole lot about yourself that would represent you in a good light. In my opinion, you are the light so stay shiny!