Melbourne

In-person interviews are a lot, especially at 9am on a Monday. But I'm now done. Early slots are worth it.

I think it went pretty well. We'll see.

Why is it that there’s always something out of balance. If it’s not work life then it’s health or money. When they are all broken then it feels hopeless

Happy monday erybody :(

oof. Advertised for a junior/entry level position in my team (academic research), got 74 applications, many with PhDs. Rough.

After hearing of the last psychologist I found not taking new clients, I went through the whole process of finding another one with a trustworthy and empathetic face (yes I judge people entirely off of their face. Don't @ me), getting a new MHCP, getting a new referral, making another appointment, trying to organise for the session to be paid in advance again. I'm finally done, and have found one that seems fine. I hope it works out. I don't want to have to find yet another one

The woman buying my sewing machine just picked it up. She did not accidentally overpay me by thousands of dollars. I guess the dream was not prophetic.

Called out of my shift, couldn't sleep until 4am and only for two hours.

Gonna make that GP appt today for my eye, it's just hurting so much worse. Ugh!

Happy Monday! Lol

Fell asleep for a bit, but have a GP appt tomorrow morning. I'm trying not to get overly anxious about this, because it's probably nothing, but its such a different pain than I am used to.

Like, sharp, and then achey, and sharp if I rub my eyes (which I do without thinking). I have no idea what I could have done to it, like it's a weird spot. Just under my right eye, where the orbital hole ends, on my cheekbone. I know I keep posting, but I'm anxious ugh!!!!

I’ve had a weirdly positive day… I mean, a little unexpected. Even though I was running late, I made good time. Even though I missed tea break, had a shortened lunch, wasn’t all that hungry and ran out of time (and verbally road raged a little on the way home), I:

• made it to a Uni appointment
• had some meaningful conversations in intervention deliveries
• made it to my extra-curricular session on time
• had some more meaningful conversations

And just all round one of those days where for a moment you feel as if you’ve woken up, are about 95% yourself and things feel somewhat good… like a distant memory.

I’m even in one my fav burger shops that is always empty and there are about 8 or so other people eating in and it feels… nice.

No guarantees for tomorrow, but I think being grateful for just even the ability to even get out of bed is underrated. ✨

Yayyy!!! Can't wait to start a newwww work week!!! 👌👌💪🌞🌞🥳🥳

I wasn't gonna go anywhere today but I need m&ms.

I have a big preso tomorrow. To about 100 attendees. I have to talk for about 10-12 mins and I'm prepared. It's just that I get so nervous my heart starts pounding crazy fast.

My previous presos have also been in front of the same crowd but that was for like 2-3 mins as I had someone share the time but tomorrow am all alone. Which means that I need to take questions as well.

My heart rate is already high thinking of tomorrow 🤕 can someone give me some tips to calm down? Please don't say slow breathing because it just makes it worse for me 😭

I've also been told I give great presos but I gaslight myself into thinking it was bad. I've prepared pretty well but still nervous as shit as this is the biggest one so far.

Am off to the gym now to take mind off things and just relax. I'll go crazy otherwise

Baby quokka!

https://www.instagram.com/reel/C-R_VVAJWlZ/?igsh=MjM3c3J3emk0M2hu

Man I love my cat. She’s just a big old teddy bear and a sweetheart. Even when she’s a bit spoiled it’s cute

operation get rid of stuff continues , another dozen books I'm never going to read are sorted to go out , more knickknacks are going

Today's song

Owner of a Lonely Heart - Yes

Toddler took my phone. I asked for it back, he disappeared for a moment then handed me back the purple ring from his tower toy thing. He looks satisfied with our "trade" and buggers off again, only to leave the phone behind on the floor anyway.

Dropped off the transfer of shares papers to the executor of my grandma’s will today.

I wanted to mail them off so I didn’t have direct contact with the executor but it wasn’t to be.

Drove out of my way and got stuck in a one sided conversation I didn’t really want a part of due to the family feud going on between the executor who is my Aunty and half the family which consequently made me get home later as well.

Hopefully with that out of the way the distribution of the will can go ahead.

Parts of my family suspect that the Aunty has an unfair share of the will or has been stealing or misappropriating funds related to the will. She dumps all her emotional baggage on me because she considers me the nice one of the family but all I wanted to do was run away from her.

Have we entered the era of peak fake?

• instagrammers with enhanced images
• fake bodies pumped full of Botox, fillers, steroids or maybe even all three.
• scammers pretending to be someone else, even your own bank.
• deepfakes
• autotune and pitch correction.
• so called live performances with pre recorded audio (yes Celine I'm looking at you)
• people living their fake lives in social media making out it's better than it really is.
• Politicians telling anything but the truth.

HOLY FUCK ORVILLE S4?!!

tried to book a camping trip for cup day weekend. Limited to "glamping" (ie: power and a hot shower) cause I was gonna bring the little fella, but no joy. Everythings booked out. Prom, Eildon, Bright, Philip Island, all totally booked out. The fact that it's still months away and its booked out blows my mind.

Tweaked my shoulder again yesterday and I'm getting a headache and also sending odd sensations and pins and needles down my arm/hand again.

Thought fully recovered from it a month ago.

omg, I have finally cleared all 50 levels of bubble town. it only took a few years and many thousands of attempts. I took a screen shot. I'm a bit numb...lol

Anti-gratitude thread 👎

Balancing shit is hard.

There's someone stood in front of the Magistrate court on William St with a couple of big posters behind him, handing out flyers. He keeps repeating "Judges are motherfuckers" nothing else. At it for over an hour now

My monday morning activities fell through, so now I'm just tired. I don't know whether to go back to sleep for a bit, or stay up. If I stay up, I'll be cranky by tea time. If I sleep, I run the risk of missing packages (I know I have at least 1 coming)

The race riots in the UK make Cronulla 2005 look like a children's tea party.

I finally heard back from the school lady (I'm a bit concerned with how many times I've had to follow up), and she fixed the issues with the enrolment paperwork, which I've now signed!

For some classic bureaucracy related reasons, they need a photocopy of a guardians personal identification. Probably going to be a difficult thing to obtain when my guardian is the secretary of DFFH. But as of now, that's no longer a me problem, that's something they'll all have to work out together.