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That sucks, man. I hate that kids grow up watching us be assholes to each other and internalizing that. My wife grew up in a macho alpha male house, where her father held absolute control by whatever means. Her mother always made excuses for her father, so my wife grew up glorifying that anger and outbursts (physical, verbal, and psychological). I had glimpses of those outbursts from her once we started getting close, but I always gaslit myself and tried to 'be better', because I have an undiagnosed ADHD (which she doesn't believe in).

Things took a dramatic turn after our marriage when we moved to the US on my work visa. She hated the country and the lifestyle change and wanted to go back, I wanted to stay, and she started getting more and more abusive. After 2 years, when I finally realized we should split, she got pregnant, and here we are. I hate to think of all the emotional trauma we caused/cause our kid, but if we divorce now, she would take my kid back home, and I would either have to quit my life here and start from scratch there, or not be able to be part of my 8yos life, so I guess we continue destroying all three lives for as long as we can.