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today was supposed to be my first day of therapy and the therapist didn't show up. I'm pissed off. I wasted 2 hours for nothing.

I've sent her a polite message, asking if she's sick and hoping she is well, but in reality I wanted to yell at her. However, if I yell at her, chances are she won't treat me.

Before you suggest to find another therapist, finding a shrink where I live is very difficult and the other ones I contacted have either ignored me or are overbooked. I need therapy and it bothers me to be so dependent on one person.

For those of you who have experienced something similar, how doesn't it bother you?

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[โ€“] [email protected] 3 points 10 months ago (2 children)

In your example, when you move out of your parents house so your dad can't beat you anymore, the beatings might stop but the mental effect they've had on you remains. Those effects will, given time, cause other problems. Not guaranteed ofc, everyone's situation is different, but it's often the case. You need to deal with the effects to prevent them causing other problems. This can be a challenge if you don't even realize they're there, or don't think of them as problems, or avoid dealing with them because you hate them.

I'll use my life as a practical example. I was severely bullied early on in school. I essentially withdrew socially entirely, to avoid as much of it as possible. Depression set in, but at the time it was almost a blessing, because feeling nothing was better than dealing with it all. Fast forward to college--things are much better, I had friends, but I'm still dealing with a lot of self hatred, because you don't spend 7 years of people hating you and come out the other side with a positive self image. Still depressed, still having suicidal thoughts. Just now, for the first time, I had social connections, and so a lot of anxiety about not screwing it up. Dated someone, who ended up falling in love with her idealized fantasy of me, not actually me, while I'm struggling to feel anything through the depression. We have an ugly split, and I come away blaming myself for not being that idealized fantasy, hating myself for hurting her and not being able to feel. My self image got worse. That made me extremely uncomfortable with relationships and romance in general, but I didn't realize until I was asked out by a friend. She thought I was interested in her, and that caused me a lot of anxiety and self hatred for not being able to, guilt over making her think I was. There's now so much self hatred, guilt, and negativity associated with dating and romance that I had to suppress any thoughts about it honestly. Fast forward to a year or so ago, I can't handle thinking about being in a relationship let alone go dating. I moved to a new city for a job right after graduation just before the pandemic hit, so I didn't have any friends in the area when we started lockdown and working from home full time. Even more socially isolated than when I withdrew completely all those years ago in school. When things started opening up again, not only did I not have any friends nearby to do anything with, but the old anxiety about being social in person from the start of college was back. You see how all the issues compound on one another? Talking with my therapist helped me understand all of this. She made me reconsider all of those events, helped me peel away the layers of guilt and self hatred that wrapped them to see the reality of those situations, rather than the distorted versions that I was beating myself with. On my own, I had learned coping mechanisms, ways of thinking and acting to let me function around my problems, but I didn't even realize that they were fixable problems instead of just the natural way I was until I started therapy. I'm also on antidepressants, but it's like... imagine the central heating in your house breaks. Your immediate problem is the cold, not the broken heater. You might have coping mechanisms, like bundling up and using more blankets and drinking hot drinks, you might start antidepressants, in this analogy plugging in a space heater or two, but the real long term solution is therapy to fix your central heating.

Your comment in general wasn't offensive, just that one side note. Depression and mental illness can happen to anyone, it's not something that happens to you because you're not strong enough to resist it. You can't avoid or stop being depressed through force of will.

[โ€“] [email protected] 0 points 10 months ago

Alright, I think I get it now. Thanks. I didn't really consider the long term consequences. As it's still alien for me, but reading your story I'm thankful.

I remember being bullied in 1st grade as well. But I also remember that after a while I just didn't care what they were saying, and they stopped. I guess I wasn't fun to mess with anymore. This led to me joining the "cool kids". And in my social circle we also know that bullying is bad, but I also see the side where kids who get bullied did something to get bullied. In elementary I remeber two kids, who we hated.

With person A; I was very good friends with A. Soon I learned that I was his only friend. But the extrovert I am, I tryied meeting new ppl from class. (This was like 2nd grade, idk why I remember this well). And this mf started acting out. I remember clearly that he dragged me out of a circle where I was talking, led me to the other side of the classroom. And had nothing to say, just wanted us to be alone. I honestly just told him that it was wierd and went back. Instead of joining in the circle or just talking to me when I'm not with other ppl, he dragged me away again. To say nothing, he did this like every day. It's not like I ditched him, we were still playing and talking almost the same, he just didn't let me talk to any other kids. When I did anyways he got upset. After like a half or full year of this it started getting really annoying, and I started telling him strongly to stop. He didn't. So he became disliked and bullied. Even now I have no idea what his deal was, even if he's gay, this ain't the way. And just to note, we were good friends, went to each others' place almost every week. I'm really sorry for him.

Person B; 5th grade. The same friendship story, but with my friend. B and by friend went way back. But when B joined our group of friends, he wanted to impress everyone. But he really didn't have anything to stand out. We kinda liked the guy, so it wasn't like he needed to be special, but he wanted to be anyways. This led him to lie. He lied about everything, what games he playes, what cool things he owns, what skills he can do. And it always cought up with him. For a solid year we were telling him to just stop lying about everything, and asked why he was doing it. That got nowhere, "I'm not" was the answer. And he kept lying about everything. We couldn't trust him at all, with anything. So we stopped talking with him. Made fun of him when his lies was so obvious it was embarassing. Still didn't stop. He got bullied too.

These are my bullying stories, from the other side. Thankfully at highschool we ain't bullying noone. Someone still left school because of it tho. Different story, 99% sure she was schizo.

If I were more educated or know what I know today. I might have guessed something like A is just gay. Or B has attension problems. But it's not like you can teach these concepts to a group of 2nd and 5th graders. Or expect them to know for that matter. So while I understand what you're saying. Thank you again for the stories. It's very alien to me, and I'd wanted to share why. I hope you're doing OK, and I also hope the mentioned ppl are doing fine too. I'd just like to note again, that I liked both kids, they did something that they shouldn't have. For a long period of time. Didn't stop when warned. And I lost friendships.