Melbourne

Good news with a sting. I got my new casual role and pay confirmed and it's definitely all in the right direction.

Unfortunately... Work wants the company car back immediately upon ending my ft role. They've been much more flexible with others who have gone casual in the past, and in the meeting he did say he'd give me some lead time so I can make my own arrangements, but... today after heading into the office he was all paggro and sarcastic again so I don't expect any favours.

I was prepared for the eventuality and overall I MUCH prefer letting go my old work than keeping the car on, but seeing it in writing - to happen two weeks from now - has definitely been a shock to the nervous system. Like whoa, I wasn't prepared to say bye so soon and go back to a carless life that fast, especially when I'll still have two weeks of catsitting to do after that.

I'm definitely feeling that big-change-loss-anxiety-fear (and OMG! how will i visit my friends or get bigger groceries etc? I won't be able to go into the office easily any more, no more regional trips unless I use carshare)

But I think it's mixed in with excitement and determination because life is definitely making me start to commit to what I want and get out of that rut. I've lived on far far less and without a car for most of my adult life. Crucially, i never have to worry about being kicked out of this country. So everything is heaps better than before.

It's time to get cracking ......after I indulge in some escapism tonight. Good Omens maybe.