This/I do not feel fine, but at least there's troll coping to fill the void.
Edit: after venting to a friend about this during an anxiety attack, she gave me contact information to an office that was able to schedule me for next month. I feel very fortunate and relieved. I'm also extremely appreciative of not just her, but all of you! This is a wonderfully supportive community, you're all amazing people
I do, I've even recently increased my sessions from every other week to once a week, but I can't always afford to call him when the anxiety kicks in and keeps me from being able to do anything but cry. We're definitely going to have a (seemingly)fast session next week.