I'm currently on my 3rd playthrough, and I'm playing as a dark urge character who gives into his urges. For spoiler prevention I'll describe what I just finished as vaguely as possible. I just completed the durge objective that gives you a powerful reward in act 2.
This is depressing. All of the good that I accomplished in my first two playthroughs is absent. My camp is nearly empty. Lae zel's lifeless body has been laying in my camp for 2 full acts. Karlach, Wyll, Zevlor, Damon, Jaheira, and many others are dead, either by my hand or because of my actions.
I didn't fully appreciate just how lonely and depressing, self-serving life would be. I have more gold and loot than either of my other playthroughs, and I'm more powerful, but to what end? My own lonely existence? I don't think that I will continue past this point. I've accomplished what I set out to do, which was experience the game as an evil character. I don't think I need another 50 hours of this to pound the point home.
Hats off to Larian for making such an emotional and realistic game, full of vibrant and exciting characters. I don't enjoy the world where I have betrayed them all.
I am also doing my Durge playthrough and it's so sad. I am making Shadowheart, Astarion, and Lae'zel the worst versions of themselves. They really did evil well.
I also got really sad about killing the cows after getting the act 2 reward for killing a certain someone. They didn't ask for this.
Right? Especially if you talked to them with Speak With Animals first. They were so excited about their neeeewww friend.
Your post kind of convinced me to play again.
How so? You want to experience the loneliness and depression first-hand?