iamdisillusioned

Interesting! I actually did a psychological assessment recently (naively thinking that autism would be included), so I completed the intelligence testing too. I think it was the WAIS2. I didn't realize it would be included and I was in an extreme state of burnout but I still got a result of "superior" processing speed. It's one metric that sometimes makes me question whether I could be autistic because so often the narrative is that autistics are slow processors, but your perspective and result indicates that I shouldn't allow that to cloud my judgment.

Thanks for sharing that resource. I've gotten some validation from neurodivergent therapists and am okay with my self diagnosis for now.

I just got rejected by a primary care doctor because they "are not accepting new patients with PPO insurance". I spend extra on a PPO because when I had an HMO they let me see a doctor but the doctor wouldn't treat me because "insurance won't cover it". What an asinine system.

The Taycan has only been around a few years. Are these batteries that have been replaced or were the original cars tossed? I'm glad the batteries are getting additional use, I'm just afraid of how much other waste is being created. I know my boss leases a new Porsche every 3 years and it breaks my heart to think they aren't getting resold and are getting destroyed.

I'm 40 and unable to get diagnosed because I don't have anyone from my childhood that can provide the information required to prove my traits existed back then. Based on online assessments and self reflection, I'd say ASD level 1, no ADHD.

My burnout is a bit more complicated. The elements you described are involved but there's also an element of being trapped or out of control.

Mine are also much worse and I suspect it's because I'm I'm a near constant state of burnout.

I think this is a way to phrase "rigid thinking" but I don't feel that I relate to the phrase. I'd say I'm more of a my way or the highway thinker. Also genericartdad is fantastic.

I'm not surprised to see downvotes on the comments saying you don't need a diagnosis, but I completely agree with them. I googled "neurodivergent therapist" and found a local practice that had an autistic Psychologist who focused on assessments. I reached out to schedule and she said "I guess you could get a diagnosis of high functioning ASD, but why do you want this". I told her I was sure of my self diagnosis but wanted the validation. She said a therapist could do that without me paying thousands for the full assessment. She strongly discouraged me from the process. It was disappointing but after watching countless YouTube videos of people who had gotten their diagnoses, told family/friends, then revisited the subject months or years later, there was a resounding consensus that the diagnosis didn't change anything. There are also drawbacks to an official diagnosis, especially when it comes to emigration and child custody. If you feel disabled by ASD and want to try to get benefits, it would probably be easier and cheaper to go to a regular therapist and get the alphabet soup of diagnoses that we tend to get from those not sufficiently trained in neurodiversity (bipolar, depression, anxiety, OCD, BPD, ODD, etc). I've started receiving helpful accommodations without saying I'm autistic by telling people, I have auditory processing issues, so I need to be somewhere quiet, or telling my boss I burnout really easily and needed to reduce my hours.

So true. My boss makes about a million a year and gets whiny whenever we deal with clients that make more than him. He has plenty of money but that will never buy the parental love that he didn't get as a child.

Just don't tip dude.

Technology Connections is fantastic. I'm usually very possessive of my attention but I always end up listening to him infodump for a hour about something I couldn't care less about.