ameliorability

It's been so long man. But damn I had to struggle, and I am at a better place now. Still a student, but I have grown a lot. Bless you for helping me at a vulnerable time. It still hurts sometime, but I know I have made a lot of progress in positive things.

Thanks. I'm feeling much better now but will still reply. I tried not to do those things as I was in a dark place and now have to channel my thoughts in a more productive way.. now focusing on family and development more, kind of forcing it. And it helped me a lot though it's far from a perfect journey. Try reading my other comment replies!

Thank you for the help brother. I recently had a short dream of her where she tried to be lovey dovey to me but I didn't show love, it's kinda weird but I think that says something lol. Also focusing on family:)

That's kind of how I felt; her reaction made it obvious that she was hiding it. It's especially hard to feel okay because I was raised to highly respect and value women and I started blaming myself more than I should have. Thank you brother. I have cut her off and feel better.

Thank you for the advice brother. I created as much distance i could, and used to think of contacting her again, but forced myself to stick to my decision. It feels like that part of my brain that once used to pulse with love is now turned off. Although I hadn't felt love in a long time in my relationship either. I focused on myself and did professional and personal development. I'm sure I am on the right path right now!

Thanks, it was hard to get every trace of her away from my phone, she had sent me 1700 pics. Gotta be more strict in the future.

Thank you. She used the friends card after I found out about her bf, only had mentioned being friends once without explanation many months prior. But I didn't think she'd be sending pics ot her behind to a friend, tbh.

she said "as a friend" only once, and dropped went back to calling me intimate names and sending intimate pics

Although I won't do LDR again, we had a genuine connection!

Thanks man! I know time will heal, but here I got some great input from other people like you about my relationship and life in general. I'm trying to take this "ending" in the most productive way possible. I'm over the emotional part but my post helped me learn what I did and didn't do wrong!

love doesn't make sense <3

Thank you. I agree, but at the same time I believe I could have received some clarification instead of her blaming her absence on depression. With her arbitrarily jumping from sending sexual pics to saying we were friends, perhaps I stayed too silent lol. Didn't place a clear boundary based on the "phase" she was going through, and I was too stupid to not clarify.