Kayday

I'm always surprised to hear people's stories of how supportive others can be sometimes. I genuinely hope that someday soon we can both experience more of that.

Just live your life the way you want and the people who genuinely love you will stick around.

Why is the best advice always so damn simple. I will definitely consider telling her soon. Thank you.

This resonates with me also because some of my more distant family has already estranged themselves over the last few years for completely unrelated reasons. I want to help keep people together, but it's ultimately not up to me if they want to stay close.

In one of our favorite series we watch together (Critical Role), two characters were introduced in a new season who we each latched onto as our respective favorites. Lo and behold, these characters ended up together. When we started deciding what costumes to make for GenCon this year, we went with those characters.

She went as Beauregard Lionett, and I went as Yasha.

Thank you for this. I've asked her some probing questions, and I get a lot of uncertainty from her. Now that I'm writing that, uncertainty means she would have to doubt what she used to think. Seems obvious, but I'm only just realizing that.

if they do hate you when you come out then they never loved you really.

I've read this before, but it's hitting me different now in a good way, I think. Thanks again.

Feeling like I need to keep secrets from her is one of the things that makes it the hardest. I want to bring myself into the light. I would not be content on my deathbed.

You're right, sorry to be confusing. The post title was meant to refer to how I have previously chosen to postpone transitioning ever since realizing I am trans; a choice I am no longer content with.