depression_now!

Yup. My appetite goes away because of my adderall. It actually causes problems with my family believe it or not.

For some reason people get horribly offended if you don’t finish their food. Even if it’s clear that you’re just full or not feeling all that well.

Doesn’t help that I used to be heavier. So people always assume that I’m doing it because I don’t want to gain weight. Which in turn makes them push even more food towards me. It’s exhausting

I used to struggle gaining weight. Before I was 28, I never weighed more than 119 at 5'7". People would always comment on how tiny I was and saying they wished they could be skinny like me. I'd tell them I have a high metabolism, which isn't untrue, but I really wanted to tell them my secret was having massive bouts of depression where I only eat a handful of crackers or whatever at a time.

I have a bucket list in my phone and one of the items is "weigh more than 120 pounds." I thought that once I achieved it, it meant I had finally beaten depression. The day I went to my annual physical and weighed in at 125 was one of the happiest days of my life. (Still depressed af though lol.)