Long story short, I'm a security guard and after a couple of months decided that with a history of suicidal ideation I probably shouldn't carry a pistol, I told the doctor at my work, they said I could no longer carry a pistol and I figured they were going to bring me in today (yesterday now), fire me and that's that. Well, somehow I was not fired, I got in at 1:30, sat for 2.5 hours waiting for something to happen and the people who should have done the firing just went the fuck home... So, I continued to sit. I sat until 9:00 when I was told to go collect trash from the various guard posts. Ok. Then they told me to report in tomorrow at 7:30am (I don't work at 7:30) and they would have me working days until "my issue is resolved". So tomorrow I'll just let them know that it's not going to be resolved, hopefully they can me then, if I quit I cannot claim un-employment. This is weird as hell because I may end up in a stalemate as a glorified janitor until I can find another job and resign.
Yeah, I'm going to ride it out for this week at least and see what happens. I am going to talk to them tomorrow and see if they can help me get a different position at the same location that is better suited for me, if not I have some folks I can reach out to to try to get work in short order.
Regarding guns; The funny thing is that I am totally ok around rifles and shotguns, I grew up using them on a ranch and consider them tools rather than weapons. Pistols though, in my mind, only exist to kill people and I don't want to be near them.
The mind's a funny thing like that. I have no experience around guns and suspect in a moment of desperation I'd make any work.
The hardest part of any weapon you are not familiar with is operating the safety (if equipped).