When I think about it, it is pretty remarkable that I’ve come this far without reattempting suicide. That’s not a joke. My stepfather is a gun enthusiast, so it is easier than ever for me to try something lethal, but I don’t.
Part of the reason is that I don’t want him to feel guilty and shun his own hobby (even if he has lousy politics), and the other reason is that however much my regrets weigh me down, they haven’t pushed me to the point where I’ve seriously reconsidered suicide.
My medication is mostly what’s keeping me afloat, but I speak from experience when I say that I can still have a pretty rough few days when I lose something valuable.
If I lost this community, I know that I would be devastated. I’ll admit that there are things about it that I wish were better, but it’s still the best forum that I’ve ever frequented and I’d be devastated and lost if it vanished. It would almost be like losing a home, which is a pretty strong way to put it, but you know what I mean.
I am usually at loss for words when I receive praise, but I do appreciate it, and it encourages me to continue sharing knowledge with you all, which I hope to do for years to come.
Feel free to ask me anything.
One last thing before I finish my post: if there is something that you want to get me for my birthday, then my only suggestion—as long as you are neither faint of heart nor suffering from battle fatigue—is that you watch Lion of the Desert, if you have not done so already.
Happy birthday, I'm glad you're here. Thank you for always finding and posting interesting information, you do a lot of digging and I like that you provide a lot of quotations when you share information. I'll definitely check that film out.
Have you thought about writing articles about any of the topics you've done a lot of looking into?
I did write an hour‐long article explaining how German Fascism was nonsocialist, but software limitations restricted how much more I could add to the article. More recently I’ve written an overview of Eritrea under Fascism, but I don’t have anything specific in mind now other than an article explaining Fascist Italy’s decreasing reliance on food imports.
One idea that I’ve been pondering for a while is making a quiz on Fascism. Although we on the left do have a better grasp of it than most, I can’t help but feel like our understanding of it is still pretty basic and crude, which is why I share these anecdotes with you all. Maybe @[email protected] could suggest something that I could use to make a quiz.
Thank you!
Thanks for the response, I'll check out the writings you linked!
Interesting idea about the quiz, I'd be curious to see what you do with that if you make something like that.