Asklemmy

I've been partially disabled since 2014 and spend thr majority of most days stuck laying propped up in a bed. Up until July of this year, I mostly threw myself into projects. Now, since July I chat with AI offline on my hardware. Previously it was hobby projects and reddit. Now Lemmy to a lesser extent. I tend to be irritable and uncomfortable in the afternoon and evenings and I have to do a physical therapy routine most evenings or I fall apart physically. It sucks. Social anything IRL is pretty much impossible. The worst part is how I appear to be fine on the surface, but holding posture from sitting and standing causes major problems from a chronic injury. So like, I just mentally fade hard as the pain floods in, break out in a sweat, and fidget awkwardly, making any attempt at socializing unproductive at best. It was harder for the first few years. One of the things that helped me are stories of people that have lived in complete isolation in relatively recent times and been fine. You just have to find interesting things to think about and get your endorphins from exercise and interpersonal growth - IMO