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Thanks. I could go on and on. Like how I've been wearing glasses and contacts for years, but they recently accused me of faking because I could hold a container inches from my face and see a few ants inside.
I lost my job and had to move in with them recently. I wore the same pair of contacts for a month, and need to refill my prescription. Everything more than a foot and a half away is blurry.
So, a day or two after saying I was faking, mom sent me a Facebook video out of the blue instructing people to stare at the Sun for better eyesight. No apologies, no nothing, but apparently she believed me again and wanted to "help".
And like a day later, when I told her a friend was going to help me order a small box of contacts so I can see, and drive, and work, and even just be able to read; her response was to tell me she could have helped, but didn't want to "enable me"...
I can only imagine she meant I should squeeze my butt cheeks real hard and bootstrap my way into better vision, or she thought my bad vision was a delusion that she didn't want to feed into. Either way, not great.
Like, she's the one that complained about me using old contacts in the first place and urged me to throw them away to avoid eye damage and going blind.
But then what was with the random accusation, then the sudden change of heart? The fuck is going on?
My friend never followed up, and they're dealing with their own stuff, so I don't want to just ask them for the money. So it's been over a month of not being able to see and I'm just... existing. Can really do much when I can't even read without holding the thing a foot away from my face.
There obviously more to the story, but it's a complicated living situation at the moment.
Anyway, there is a lot more than just those two things, and I suspect they have narcissistic and paranoid personality traits. They constantly make the worst assumptions. Like tonight, they were looking for a bottle of sauce in their pantry. (My sister and I have our own in the garage.) They couldn't find the bottle, and immediately assumed someone stole it. I don't eat meat, so I wouldn't have used it. So, they assumed my sister went into their cabinet and took it. Mom told me that was the exact reason why they can't trust us, or something like that. I was trying to ignore her.
Guess what though? They found the bottle on the counter a few minutes later, and mom scoffed at dad for accusing my sister for no reason.
I'm tired... I'm just so tired.
Edit: Here's the video she sent me.
https://www.facebook.com/reel/1232929208094631?sfnsn=mo&s=F5x8gs&fs=e&mibextid=6AJuK9
Oh man, that sounds so exhausting ๐ฉ
What I've learned about narcissistic personalities is that they are paranoid and purposefully delusional. That's why rationality has nothing to do with the conversation. They are warping reality to fit a worldview that they are the best (grandiose) and deserve all the benefits of being the best (entitlement). As such, if they get something, it's because they deserve it. If they don't, then they're a victim. If they perceive someone is "better than them," they will warp their delusion to bring them down. Reality has nothing to do with this, so having an argument with them is entirely pointless. They solely want to maintain their delusion.
The point I'm trying to make is that if your mother is narcissistic, you might be misunderstanding her communication. She's not telling you your perspective, emotions, and experiences are wrong. She's telling you that she feels threatened by you improving your life and needs you to look down upon in order to maintain her delusion. As such, I think it might be a good idea to learn to translate narcissism to rational talk so you could have a reality that's founded on...well, reality. Also, maybe try to see a social worker that could help you (1) get access to eye care and other benefits that could help you become a bit more independent and (2) make sense and navigate that difficult environment you are in. What do you think about that?
Honestly, I don't know. I'll need to think about it. Parts ring true, and others I'm not sure about. I'm in another state now and basically lost my entire social network, resources, etc., so a social worker isn't the worst idea. I just don't know if it will help at all, or if I even qualify. If I need to go anywhere, I'll have to have them drive me until I can see again. They would, but they'd start to get nosey after a while.
Hell, at one point they demanded my username and password to a government website, because they wanted to check and see if I was filling out a certain type of paperwork, and if I was getting any kind of welfare and hiding it from them.
The moment they get a paranoid idea, they run with it. Then they get upset at anyone else if their behavior causes problems, never once stopping to wonder if they were wrong.
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Yeah, an expert might help. I think I'll see if that social worker can do anything. Would you mind if I hit you up with a few questions, if I have any? I honestly might delete this whole thread. It's kind of embarrassing to leave out in public.
omg, from the outside, what you're saying about that sounds troubling. I'm happy you're noticing it, acknowledging it's not okay, and are working to gain some distance. You're on your path.
I totally get wanting to delete this. You can definitely hit me up on Matrix. I think the direct messaging on Lemmy might be publicly accessible too, so that avenue wouldn't help with privacy. My Matrix account is in my profile. I'm not a therapist nor a family counselor of any sort, but I would be happy to answer any questions you may have to the best of my ability ๐
Thanks. I'm gonna take some time. May or may not message you. But I appreciate it. I feel less insane now that someone else confirms this is fucked up.
Yeah, I've learned that that's a sign of gaslighting. Again, I'm sorry you're going through that. It's not okay at all. And, you're welcome! I'm glad it helped. That's what we're all here for, and I'll be there if you reach out ๐