I feel guilty for using this community like a Mastodon, even when the sidebar/community encourages it. I have a Mastodon account for practicing another language, but sometimes I don't want the challenge associated with that mental exercise. ๐ค
Anyway, I woke up today feeling absolutely tired, and it has continued all day. It's like wearing a weighted blanket, and trying to move. More mental than physical, though, and paired with slight irritability. ๐งโโ๏ธ
It's probably because I've been working a lot (6-7 days a week, but with variable hours on each day)... and waking too early, but I still feel like I'm not getting enough done. ๐ด My success in life has been due entirely to weaponizing fear into toxic productivity. Any slack in the line is interpreted by my brain as utter laziness.
Thank you for tolerating my brain spill and emojis. ๐ง
Oh gosh that resonates for me as well, and thinking back it goes all the way to when I was in school and the fear of parents finding out. Not that I really had anything to fear other than their disappointment.
I really struggle with doing nothing - which probably explains why I spend time online as that is still doing something rather than nothing.