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The world has told me to die over 2000 times (self.depression_now)

submitted 4 months ago by DudemanJenkins to c/depression_now

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I've been looking for a job now for over a year and I just wish someone could honestly look me in the face and just tell me "No, I'd rather see you die".

I've filled out well over 2000 job applications now. I'm overqualified for anything immediate but never considered for anything in my field (SQA). This is the third career of mine thats been totally out sourced and I'm just so fucking tired of it all.

Finally had a promising lead but it was just another 0 feedback interview to tally up their interviewed candidates to make the minimum "effort" to shoe in someones friend. Nobody even read my resume and the interview was 10 minutes long. I hate that I know all of these tactics at this point and I especially hate being a pawn in that game.

I wish someone would honestly and truthfully just tell me they would rather see me die than help me find the means to support myself. Every "well keep you on file" is a goodbye.

I'm so fucking tired. Every opinion and suggestion is such bullshit: "do something else" without ever defining what else means, "work on your resume" while looking at your 28th revision, "Something will come" which never happens, or my favorite one "why don't you work on getting your degree or certification [with your non existent money]?"

Nobody I've worked with and none of my friends have referred me anywhere in this year+, just strangers on LinkedIn with kind ears ultimately bound to the same systems that want me to die.

The only thing keeping me here is cooking for my family and being there for my wife but when everyone goes to school and work I truly understand why Garfield hates Mondays.

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[–] [email protected] 4 points 4 months ago (1 children)

Hi, I know what you are going through. I wish I knew how to deal with it or any advice related to it.

What honestly sucks is that we are candidates to them, not human beings. They don’t have any sympathy/ kindness towards us. I too wish things were different, at least getting some kind of feedback would improve things drastically. Without feedback, rejection feels arbitrary, especially when most employers portray themselves to be merit-driven.

This entire system sucks. It makes us feel useless and impotent to do anything. Is it any wonder that we want to die? I was in ER last month for this. It’s not like I am dead or things are any different.

[–] DudemanJenkins 5 points 4 months ago (1 children)

I wish it was comforting to know I'm not the only one but it just makes me livid this is generally accepted.

[–] [email protected] 2 points 4 months ago

Whether accepted or not, that happens to be the reality we live in. I wish I had any power to change things. But, I don’t. I don’t have the capital to start up a business of my own to change things. I am currently working on a contractual basis, so power there. I want to run away from this world so badly, but I am incapable to doing that too.