Friend, I hope you can continue enjoying life and it isn't past tense only. If you're unsure, please reach out and find the help you need π
As for your sentiment, I feel the same, cosmic dust but okay with that thought; enjoy life as it is, unworried about what is or is not after.
Also, the desire to use less fossil fuels is a consideration that doesn't necessarily have anything to do with cost. There are other reasons than money to want to switch away from gas vehicles