monknonoke

Search mo sa fb online palengke. Fb page siya tapos green yung pic niya, from tondo near divisoria hehe. Pero puro gulay at prutas lang meron, no meat.

I tried online palengke tapos na-amaze lang ako at mas sulit siya compared to me going to the supermarket or yung malapit samin. Quality pa yung mga gulay. Hindi na ako magpapakapagod 😭

I had it delivered at work, testing lang. Dun ko na niluluto since nakikitulog naman rin ako due to long hours sometimes. Mamaya mag-gym pa ako galing work tapos babalik dun na din maliligo. Grabe dorm yan 😅

Ang hassle kasi magkarga ng how many days worth of baon at work, edi diretso ko na. Kahit rice cooker lang pangluto keri na yan. Mas dumali ang buhay ko.

Isang floor ng ref sakop ko, puro tupperwares w/ food or sauces o produce pati natira kong kape. Medyo nahihiya nako kasi ang dami. Halatang ayaw magutom at ayaw bumili sa labas dahil extra gastos lang lol. Isang floor lang naman, madaming floors yung ref ok at ako mostly madalas maglagay ng food talaga.

Ayun nga, ang sarap ng orange kamote 🤤

May someone na habang inaasikaso ko pala-ngiti sakin. So naisip ko, ay cute siya kaso kapag nagsalita siya almost conyo with the tone hahaha. After awhile: hmmm cute siya and parang familiar??

Na-handle ko na pala siya dati (it took me a minute to remember). Funny enough naisip ko din na cute siya nung first time nung di ko pa naaalala.

So ayun, imagine if nagka-amnesia ako and then I woke up. I definitely don't remember the person I like but somehow they just pull me in and make me curious and still think they're cute. Gusto ko ng ganon 😆

Oh well.

Pagod na ako sa work and it's starting to show 😮‍💨

I'm trying to see the brighter side of things, at least nakakapag-ipon ako. 'yun lang naiisip ko, otherwise gusto ko na ng break.

Last night I got a taste of what it's like na ikaw lang mag-isa all around gumagawa tapos sekyu lang talaga kasama mo lol. The excitement of the night was may nagbook daw ng grab sa work tapos tinatanong kung ako ba yun.

Heck yes I would have loved to be picked up from work to go home. Kaso negative, hindi ako yun at wala ng ibang tao. I would have welcomed ghostly encounters at that point.

Delayed yung sahod namin 🥲 every day I find more reasons to resign

This is actually a first for certain reasons so baka kaya pa intindihin. But if this is gonna be a regular thing obviously we're going to have a problem. Sawa na rin ako magrant about work, I want more positive things to occupy my thoughts.

I think I may have to pause my having fun phase for now. New priority: job-hunting! Fine. Buti na lang din night shift ako, I can multitask.

This time I'm hoping to go government but if I got no luck there we're staying private na magandang benefits.

And the rant: tinanong ni coworker bakit hindi na ako natutulog sa usual kong place dati. Well, ever since nakikitulog na yung ibang tao (bc sharing is caring 🤨) ang dumi-dumi na nung usual spot ko.

I do want to go back there! It's a good ass spot that I claimed first (wow, territorial). Pero kapag binabalikan ko puro na lang linis ginagawa ko hindi na ako maka-pwesto. I might be getting a little dramatic, but they've desecrated the place. Ni wala man lang nagtatapon nung shutanginang beer bottles nung uminom sila sa workplace mismo (syempre bawal yun).

Ano, ako pa magliligpit? Basagin ko yan eh. Mag iisa, dalawang linggo na yung mga bote. Nadudugyotan ako, ok? Seriously, I'm gonna need maybe two months before I can calmly throw those away myself.

You want me to sleep next to those beer bottles that irritate the f out of me tapos ang dumi-dumi pa nung space tapos ako lang nagsusumikap maglinis? I'm just gonna get pissed. God, nung ako lang dyan araw-araw ako nagwawalis tapos pinapagpag ko pa yung mga dapat pagpagin. Ang sakit na sa mata nung spot sa totoo lang. And I still clean it kahit di na ako nag-sstay dun (bc I still do general cleaning). Kapag di ko yun dinaanan wala na.

Sharing is caring, my ass. Ok lang ako makipag-share sa mga marunong maglinis. Pero kapag alam kong may pagka-dugyot, maki-parasite ka sa iba. So annoying 😮‍💨

Ah may isa pa. Ginamit nila yung baunan ko w/o permission tapos ngayon may stain na hindi matanggal tapos may burn marks / flaws na talaga siya. It still works as a food container, but you know. Food container has been violated.

This got too long. I'm just so over it. Just stay away from me and don't ruin my stuff.

I think nahulog ko yung 500 peso bill during the hustle and bustle. Gusto ko na lang humiga. Kaya talaga ako gumagamit ng wallet/coin purse, stupid pockets are loose and I would not be surprised kung nahagip siya while I was taking out another item from my pocket. It just so happens nagmamadali ako di ko nadala. Haggard na ako, I wouldn't have paid attention as much too.

Just to console myself, I can earn that back at least. Sayang nga lang. Bibili pa sana ako ng tinapay bc it was a long, long day tapos ayan pa. Hay sayang pera 😭 walang iiyak dahil sa 500 pesos 🙈

May backlogs pa aq, madaling araw pa ako matatapos. At least sahod time na. I am tired. If I had to do another double shift tomorrow, idk if magigising pa ako on time. siiiiiiiiighhhh

I can't help but raise my eyebrows at this fb friend from the same university na ngayon nagbebenta ng pyramid schemey food supplement products. Parang sayang yung science degree niya. And then I remember, ah, siya pala yung panay flex nung pera niya or something tapos wala daw ambag sa mga groupwork. My friend really hated this dude, I never really understood it.

Malapit ko na 'to i-unfriend. I keep seeing supplements that's probably not very effective tapos a wad of thousand peso bills beside it, you know those kinds of photos. For some reason I find it nauseating.

Anyway. I had this dream where kinukulit ko daw yung instructor/lecturer sa class namin about a burning question about some topic. It was a very productive dream because my dream self was finally able to ask questions that were just swirling confusingly in my head, unable to organize it and speak it out.

You know how you want to ask something but you don't even know what to ask or how to start in the first place? That's my problem. So I just kept going at it and finally something is clicking into place. Good job, dream self. That bothered us a lot.

I know I am acting abnormally when I choose ice cream w/ crushed cookies as my first meal. Why did I do that? I don't know, I must have gone crazy. It was really good tho, but now I kinda regret it 😔 actually I don't know if I regret it, pero yung tiyan ko parang di natutuwa sa ginawa ko.

Self, let's not...do that again. I think the last time I did something like that was more than 10 years ago. Why does it seem like a big deal, it's just ice cream? Well, I take care of what I eat, and I don't eat shit. Lol.

It's been a crazy week. Nag-grocery na ako and I will be back with my normal, healthy diet this week. Naloka ako. Naloka talaga ako dahil sa tuhod ko at sa mga di ko magawa bc of it. It's fine now.

This week just confirmed masaya na talaga ako sa usual diet ko. Feeling ko ang dami kong pinagdaanan just because I ate differently for a week.

Ooooh so that's what that design of diffuser is called. Ok, I'll check it out thanks!

They said red light is supposed to help you sleep. Sounded harmless enough, so I got some colored lights in my room and now it looks...funny 😆

It's either suspicious-looking or a mini-hell alternate reality version of the place. I don't hate it. My fave setting is the smooth fade transition of colors. Pretty dreamy 🤩 I think that one might help me sleep better actually, but we'll see.

I think I might get more lights just because it's fun. Next...what if I got myself a humidifier? A relaxing consistent smell would be nice. I was thinking citronella or citrus or something lavender-y.

What the heck am I doing? I have no idea. I kinda want my room to smell like fluffy, cloudy marshmallows if that makes sense.

thoughts while undergoing painful cramps:

You know what I need? Something sweet. I need some fucking sugar. To be specific: double dutch ice cream, cookie dough, and lemon bars. Dati ko pa talaga gusto ng cookie dough. Why have I denied myself cookie dough in the past? Do I hate myself or something?

😭 ah, I really want some cookie dough.

Kapag may art na hindi ko type or naintindihan iniisip ko na lang, 'Ok, I'm just not ready for this yet,' because it's not the right time or moment or maturity or intellectual level.

I go back to it a year or five years or longer and maybe, I know how to appreciate it by then. It always blows away my mind when this happens. What seemed like a simple thing suddenly has so many layers. So this was what the others saw or heard or understood that I couldn't. Amazing. I'm glad I get it now.

Does the same thought apply to people and relationships? Hmm, it seems to be much more difficult to go back to what was once there if you know, you really fuck it up. Plus you can't just go, Oh I don't understand you so balikan kita in one year lol. If you appreciate it too late, chances are you're already looking back with a tinge of regret or nostalgia.

I'll just go, I had a marvelous time ruining everything.