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May pakain sa probinsya tapos mukhang excited si kapatid kasi iluluto daw sa harap yung dish ganun. I guess it's a performance thing? Mababa ang expectations ko, I'm just there for the food, performative tricks don't really do it for me.

Kaya ganito ako kasi bumibili naman ako dun sa buy 1 take 1 burger at okay naman. Panget ko mag-compare 😂 wag na lang patagalin kapag gutom is what I'm saying lol

Well, the lolos and lolas need some entertainment, I guess. Hindi naman ako yung magbabayad. Whatever. Thank you for the food.

May pagkain sa work tapos sabi ko patikim. Si coworker naman binigyan ako susubuan pa ako 😂 mga 3 seconds ko din siyang tinitigan kasi nag-decide pa ako kung kakainin ko ba o hindi ba weird hahaha.

I decided against it kasi ang laki nga naman ng serving na isusubo niya sakin. Pero kung tama lang yung amount na binigay sakin mag-iisip pa rin ako ng 3 seconds then I'd shrug and just go for it.

Tapos nung nilagay na sa baunan ko hindi na tikim yung serving, whole ass meal na. Naloka ako. It was a funny moment.

Hshshshs probably

I heated my last piece of fave cookie tapos natagalan sa microwave at 🔥nasunog🔥

Damn it. I'm seriously rationing my cookie supply kasi mahal at matamis siya. I found out 3 big cookies can last me for a week. It's tasty enough that you don't really want to eat it in one sitting.

Another thing I learned: luh, di naman gumagana yung smoke detector dito eh, medyo nahiya ako sa amount of smoke & smell produced. RIP cookie 😭

Tonight's thoughts: litong-lito na ako kung anong gagawin ko sa non-existent love life ko.

I wanna get out there but at the same time, may oras ba ako? Kaya ba ng sched? Kailangan ko din ng matinding me time? Ready na ba uli ako gumastos for dates? Ayaw ko lumandi ng walang pera, sabihin pa gusto ko lang ng libre.

May energy ba ako? What if we could've clicked kaso kulang ako ng energy kaya hindi ko siya na-amaze with my conversational skills (chz)?

What if hindi na naman 'to mag workout dahil napagod ako because I'm not very good at talking every day and I need a day or days where my inbox is just quiet and not demanding? Maiintindihan niya ba yun? It's not that I'm not interested, my energy is just very limited 😮‍💨

And so, it's far easier to read a book. Natapos ko na The Exorcist. May sequel pala yung book and movie and showing siya next month? Absolutely perfect timing, imma watch then 🤩

Next book: Red Dragon.

Gusto ko makikain sa pagkain nung coworkers ko kaso nung nakita ko yung sangkap nila I felt myself backing out. Sweet spaghetti na may sweet sauce na nga, evaporada milk tapos extra asukal pa. Idk dessert na ata yan gurl

Ngayon ko lang nalaman yung iba pala naglalagay pati condensed milk sa spag nila. Basta I felt horrified at the amount of sugar. Kung pipili ako ng source of sugar, I choose my favourite cookies. Ayun na. I don't need extra sugar from my usual food.

Masaya na ako sa tofu vegetable combo ko. Bumili ako ng 2 blocks of tofu and it was bigger than expected 🤤

I need more protein.

Kinain na ng sistema 🙈 hahaha. Malapit na ako magpahinga ng mahaba, nararamdaman ko na

Hay may i-ccharge sakin dahil may mali ako. How do I feel about this now compared to x months ago? As long as di umabot ng thousands I'm not gonna hyperventilate over it. And trust me, I'm keeping track. May threshold rin naman ako.

Medyo nasasanay na ako on incurring losses, whether it's work-related or not. I feel like a gambler na iniisip na they can earn it back anyway. Not that I would know. Feeling ko lang that's how they would feel.

At first I was upset about it, like any normal employee. Then I started doing my calculations and considering some things and I've concluded that it's not worth crying over. Hindi pa oras makipag-break chz

That's my character development, I guess. I'm not really sure if that's disappointing or not. I feel less emotional and less reactive. Of course, I still believe stuff like that shouldn't be shouldered by the employee esp if you consider yung sahod nila.

Basta ayun, I just gotta persist and hopefully may bumunga na nakakatuwa in a month or two 🤔 kapag hindi ako natuwa edi move on to the next 🤷‍♀️ I've placed my bets anyway.

You win some, you lose some. I'm going to win eventually.

Parang mas nagiging scaredy cat ako over time. I've been reading The Exorcist (novel) and I find that I don't want to continue reading it if: one, I know I'm alone at work and it's midnight and two, I'm in the middle of reading a scary, eventful scene tapos inaantok na ako.

The thing is kailangan ko talaga tapusin yung scene otherwise feeling ko mapapaginipan ko yung very eventful scene because I'll be wondering about how a certain chapter ended. Do I want to dream about possessed Reagan doing terrible things to herself? Nah. The last thing I wanna read about it how our Jesuit priest is preparing a lecture or having a normal conversation with another priest.

The same goes for horror movies 😔 ba't kaya ganun na ako? Hindi naman ako sobrang takot, basta alam kong may human presence within the area I feel assured. I think this started nung talagang puro night shift na ako lol. I don't feel so brave anymore 😆

Pupunta kami sa cafe na gusto ko mamaya. I like their cookies 🤤 and I can't deny anymore na may pagka sweet tooth ako.

If my birthday wish for the next 10 years is good governance sa Pilipinas, magkaka-progress kaya? 15 years? Longer? Basta buhay pa ako. Nakaka ano lang talaga yung balita these days. It's not really getting any better.

Ano ngayon kung taga-big 4, big 3 siya? May masteral, may doctoral, etc? Wala eh. Yes man pa din by the end of the day.

At least na-enjoy ko yung mini-class ko. Nakikinig talaga ako and my mind does not wander off 😆 I even ask questions like an engaged student. I think ready na ako mag-enroll next year. I need to find new work first, tho.

Nakakalungkot yung budget cuts sa mga schools. So much for education.

Ang kulit nung pusa namin sa work, tinatalunan talaga ako kapag dumadaan. Minsan magugulat na lang ako may biglang nag projectile papunta sa paa ko, minsan padaan pa lang ako kita ko na naka-position na siya sa gilid, ready to pounce on me. thoughts: shet, ako ba tatalunan nito? Ay ako nga.

Hinahabol ko ba siya after niya ako talunan? Minsan oo 🙈 ang kulit-kulit. Makulit rin ako jk.

Kaya ko na din buhatin yung 5 gal of water para palitan yung tubig sa work without feeling like I'm going to hurt myself or something 😁

Heck yes, I feel pretty awesome. Wala rin spillage during the transfer, call me smooth 😌 No need to call a man to do the heavy lifting anymore chz

I do need to keep working out tho. I may not have pulled or hurt anything but I can do better. Gotta love strength training.