DearThief

I used to suffer with broken sleep, and my partner complained about my snoring and heavy breathing keeping him up. Ended up getting tested for sleep apnoea but it came back negative - turns out I just had uncontrolled asthma. I take a preventer inhaler now and I sleep like a log. It's made it so much easier to get through the day.

He got so LONG! What a handsome chap.

Feel better soon kitty!

I was in a similar boat last year and went back to counselling for some coping strategies. The most helpful things for me were constantly reminding myself not to worry about things out of my control, remembering that I couldn't possibly be inadequate because all the evidence said I was doing fine (good reviews, good feedback, not fired!), and keeping a thought diary. Every time I felt down or overwhelmed or frustrated, I'd write about the situation, list my thoughts/feelings/behaviours, and then run a critical eye over them to try and rationalise them and work out where I was being unfair on myself. The more you do that, the more you can notice negative thoughts in the moment and put a stop to them, which stops the bad mood before it even starts. YMMV but as someone with a serious self-hate problem, that worked well for me.

It also helped keeping in regular contact with management and stakeholders to update them on delays. I'm prone to blaming things on myself and keeping everyone else informed takes the edge off of that, makes me feel less like I'm...I don't know, hiding my poor performance, and more like everything is a group decision. "Okay, XYZ is late, but I told them PM it would be and they didn't do anything to help so that's on them..."

Kept me sane for an extra six months, until I got to a place where I felt able to look for other jobs. Hope things get better for you, or that you're able to get the hell out of there soon.

It's not very exciting, but sinusitis. Three weeks in bed, unable to do anything to distract myself because moving/light/sound made it worse, sobbing from the pain despite maxing out on painkillers. Felt like my brain was trying to crawl out of my eye socket.

Tears of the Kingdom, still. But also I played my first game of Starfinder and it was really fun! I've mostly played D&D 5e so it was a big step up in complexity, but everything just sort of...makes sense, so it wasn't too much of a shock to the system. Scraped through session one by the skin of our teeth after a brawl in a cyberpunk nightclub, excited to see where the rest of the game goes!

I've decided to try and find every bubbulfrog before I actually finish the game, I'm at the same point as you and I'm not ready to let it go! It's been so much fun.

(Might regret that by the time I get to the last few frogs haha...)

She's beautiful! Look at that majestic floof!

I work from home so I mostly use downtime for chores. It's so good to get them done through the day and be able to properly put my feet up after work.

If I'm in the office, I write or draw. I don't like looking like I'm dodging work so I figure if I'm scribbling away in a notebook that doesn't look too suspicious, ha.

Hi Ren. Absolute powerhouse of a song/video.

Pleasantly breezy outside, but the house is still absolutely boiling. Can't crack a window as my dumb cats will jump out of it and hurt themselves. Roll on autumn!