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The original was posted on /r/Superstonk by /u/musicmademed0it on 2023-06-26 17:23:24+00:00.
I am feeling pretty negative today kids. I work as a nurse practitioner in a hospital, formerly oncology now advanced heart failure. I have had my own struggles as we all have: raised by an awesome mother who died at 49, stuck with a narcissistic father who wouldn’t hand me a tissue because I should suffer and earn it on my own. I haven’t asked him for a penny since I left high school. But now he is having health problems, which has become my job. I am beyond grateful for my two little kids: they’re my drive. I watch people suffer all day long. It can be rewarding, it usually always is. It’s also a reminder about what other people’s struggles can be. So much perspective. So many opportunities to be a part of a critical time in someone’s life, seeing the love surrounding them or the fog and regret.
I’m drowning in debt as a single parent, credit cards maxed to pay bills and let the kids experience what I couldn’t. I want them to see things, and have experiences. Even with a decent salary, I am always trying my best to save everyone else but never me. I have come so close to selling my shares so many times but for some reason my gut says no. Wait. So I keep waiting. I ran out of oil yesterday. It has gotten out of control the last two years but I somehow keep making it. I was the breadwinner in my marriage, and I still pay for everything. I can’t live with my head barely above water like this much longer. I just want to get back to a place where the debt is gone, or minimal. The divorce cleaned this chick out, I started from scratch. That’s what I hope my interest in the stock market or GME can help bring. Comfort. I’ve been parentified since I was a child, I just want better for my kids so they don’t have to deal with this. To shoulder the weight of everyone since childhood.
I wanted to share bc I am, in life, a vault. This thread is a place to spill it, for everyone in similar positions or not. I want everyone who is having or has had this day to come here and get some love and encouragement. Find refuge. You’re not alone ♥️