That sounds like a super rough time. I'm sorry to hear it. I hope your new meds help level you out soon.
Times are tough right now.
Just hang in there, and try to leave time during the day to decompress and de-stress, however you do that best - although hopefully without alcohol. I hope you have friends and family around to help support you as well.
Better times come if we hang on and just try to improve what we can, little by little as we gain the energy to do so.
I don't really have anything else much to offer, but just know you have an internet stranger who's really rooting for you, and wishing you the best.