Similar to you, I was going through chronic burnout. I didn’t know I was burnt out either, but I was always tired, could barely stay awake, ate tons and gained 50 lbs that I can’t lose, short-tempered, forgetful, couldn’t concentrate, and so on. Life was hell. Long story short, I got fired from a few jobs because of the burnout, and eventually landed a chill gig at my local university. The best thing is that nobody expects you to work yourself to death.
Eventually, my wife and I split. It was for the best. I burnt out, and I think she burnt out (on having to take up my slack). It was the kick in the ass I needed. I started going to regular talk therapy. I kept adjusting my meds until I got the right medicine and dosage. I bought a new home. Graduated my Masters. And I’m watching YouTube with my boys as I type this.
I like to think that I’m pretty good at disassociating from pain and stress. I have so many years of experience at it. Naps help too; both with killing time, and making you feel better. Be sad if you’re sad. Be angry if you’re angry. Feel the feelings, and think about why you’re feeling that way and how it physically feels for you. Give yourself grace and forgiveness.
I liken this to breaking your leg: you wrap the injury in a cast, and spend however long coddling the injury and giving it time to heal. Once the cast comes off, you won’t be running any marathons. More than likely, you’ll do rehab to help restrengthen your leg muscles. Stretch out those tendons and joints. You can maybe walk or slow jog. Running takes time. Eventually you’ll get back to your full power. But if you rush it, you’re likely to re-injure yourself.
You’ll get there. Do what you’ve got to do to survive, and don’t stop seeking your peace.