Skyrim Mods

100% relate to this. Same thing in every game. Especially RDR2, literally no way I will ever make different choices through multiple playthroughs. Same with Witcher 3 and really any game with choices like that. I don't know of a mod that could help really.

The thing is, I don't really feel like I'm missing much by not doing a bad playthrough. If I really want to I can go watch a video or something. That's just me, though. In the end, I guess what I am saying is, there's nothing wrong with playing like this. Just play the way you want to. :)

Oh I feel this. There's been playthroughs I've started purely to be evil, yet I still end up feeling bad most of the time.

I think the only run through I've had where I actually felt like I did a good job "justifying" it was with my very old Nerevarine Telvanni Sheogorath-worshipping sorceress that I played through Morrowind-Oblivion-Skyrim with. In her case, she wasn't trying to be necessarily evil, she was just blunt, had little patience, was straight to the point and didn't consider how her words or actions may affect someone, as long as she could continue hoarding artifacts and doing nutso mage things, she was happy. She also didn't understand why murder and thievery were illegal, if she saw something she wanted, she took it, she didn't get why the guards would be upset over it and was usually disgruntled with Skyrim's law system.

You mentioned Narfi, and that's one I remember giving a justification for on that play through. In my sorceress's mind, he deserved to be in a better place more suited for him, like the Shivering Isles, so off she sent him via a Lightning Bolt to the face.

I don't have any mod recommendations, but I wanted to give an example of how I justified it myself. I didn't feel as bad as I usually did with prior evil play throughs. :)

I used to steal everything that wasn't nailed down in Elder Scrolls games. Somewhere along the line, I stopped being a pickpocketing klepto and started being a boring paladin, even with the sign of the thief on me. I did a playthrough recently with the goal of getting all the daedric artifacts to get the acheivement, and oh my god, I hated killing Erandur. I will not do that again. It felt awful.

I feel like Bethesda games make it difficult to be bad. In order to progress through the game a lot of the time you're pushed to be the good guy at least briefly.

I had this in Fallout 4 most recently. I pushed the Minute Men back to the castle with the Nuka World Raiders wiped out everyone else but was still railroaded into being buddies with them to finish the game.

I feel ya... I tried being evil in many roleplaying games, but I kept feeling sorry for the other characters haha. Maybe we're just too nice lol

This is interesting because when I was a kid I would always try to do every bad thing the game would let me because I found it hilarious that in the context of the game there could be no consequences for bad behavior. My favorite moment was in KOTOR during a trial where I committed numerous crimes, went on trial for those crimes as part of the story, admitted to my crimes proudly in a court of law, and was let off the hook for story reasons. Now when I play games I have more fun playing heroically and trying to help out as best I can because that's what I have more fun doing and would find trolling the hapless npcs boring since I used to do it so much.

I don't have the urge to play a bad guy. If I did, I'd maybe replay Mass Effect?

I don't think there's necessarily anything wrong with you, just like how I don't think there's anything wrong with bdsm practitioners.