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Sure. I think I'll describe a part of the core phenomena I'm referring to and then give an example. I think most people have a great deal of condemnation/judgment of aspects of themselves and others, often unconsciously. This unconscious self-condemnation results in (usually) unconscious urges to attain/achieve/be something to avoid the self-punishment/self-condemnation. If such a person can first realize they have such a split, and practice self-kindness and self-love, they can slowly free themselves from this self-hating self-torment and learn self-trust. I think what I've described is a issue for a lot of people, not just at the conventional level. I think what we might call insanity would start to approximate this feeling in the realm of magick.

So, this binding splitting attachment to things is motivated in a desire for self-love, but a restricted willingness to only give it if you achieve something you think you need to be worth being happy. This constrains a person to squeeze themselves into attaining these feats they think they need that don't make them happy. By unbinding that willingness for self-love, you can free yourself of such limitations.

More concretely, I'm still working through this in many ways as it is a core element of my own personality (I was raised by a narcissist in a cult-like environment). But the more familiar with it I am the more I see it in others, including perniciously in the idea of "reason/will/choice" as a motivating factor instead of emotion. That is a dangerous and widespread idea leading to extreme self-ignorance/delusion and consequential self-destruction.

So a concrete example for me would be a self-love attachment to being vegan/anticonsumerist/anarchist (or more broadly a perfectly moral person). As a result of this I sacrificed a lot of personal happiness and lifestyle options. In fact, it felt as if there were no other options on how to live my live and live with myself. But once I realized I can love myself no matter my moral attitudes, and started practicing that, and I don't have to be anything other than true to my own heart, I was able to slowly reflect on whether those commitments really matched my own emotional needs and respond to that in a way that gave me more happiness due to the greater flexibility.

That's a conventional example, but I'm convinced the same idea can apply to magical manifestation, and even to psi based phenomena like remote viewing, telekinesis, and precognition.

Originally commented by u/AesirAnatman on 2021-09-14 08:05:35 (hcqurjy)

In one way, the answer to your question is simple: stop feeling fatigued. Believe you are energized and not tired.

But it's not that simple right? IMPORTANTLY, it's not simple, not because there is a world limiting you ultimately, but only because at some level you are limiting yourself. Because ultimately YOU are manifesting drowsiness.

So, WHY do you manifest drowsiness and alertness? Under what conditions? Learn how your mind works. Play with visualizing/deciding you are alert when you've been feeling drowsy and explore the reasons you give yourself for why that is impossible. You've got to be honest and kind to yourself. Your commitments retaining drowsiness are subjectively real and there's no benefit in fighting that part of yourself. You have to befriend it and understand it and see if there are alternative ways to give it what it thinks it is getting from the belief-system that results in your drowsiness.

My experience says that drowsiness has two functions: (a) physical, in which case overcoming drowsiness entirely is a pretty major feat on par with overcoming eating and (b) emotional - i.e. it's tiring to be awake and have a stable reality, and even more so to be stressed all the time. You can address the second one easier by seeing if there's something about the way you relate to your life that is exacerbating your fatigue.

Originally commented by u/AesirAnatman on 2021-09-16 02:14:47 (hcys1z5)