Naisip ko yung prof ko dati na naka-dalawang PhD na ngayon. Iba yung level of dedication at passion, gusto ko din maging ganyan 😩

Tapos heto ako, still in the process of finding the specifics of what I want to pursue lol. May ginagawa naman ako and I'm not just staying still, pero ramdam ko talaga yung journey, not the destination part. There is definitely an ongoing process here, hindi yung result na agad.

There's a lesson to learn here for me. Siguro yung pinaka significant so far is that madami akong options, I just need to keep searching.

Nakakapagod ba maghanap? It is kinda arduous, but compared to one year ago I definitely moved forward. If I was drawing a map, I now have a general idea of the terrain. I may not have the ins and outs yet but I have something.

The reason why I'm doing this slowly is because I want to be mindful of what I'm committing myself into. Pero may ipon na ako for a year of grad school (w/ savings left) kung gusto ko na talaga. The next school year kaya na yan i-trabaho.

Anyway... kailangan ko talaga galingan for scholarship reasons in the future. And gagalingan ko lang talaga kapag gusto ko talaga yung napili ko. Really tho, kung mayaman ako I wouldn't think about this so thoroughly, go na ako agad 😆 what a life