I am a few hours away from ending my life, wanted to tell all who subscribed and thought my little art project was neat a big thank you. You all brought me joy in a fun project I had. I was recovering from my 4th concussion when I was most active here, these images I created were helping me heal and express myself when I couldn't work.
I felt I could contribute something to a budding community on the fediverse. It helped tremendously in my recovery having some direction and goals.
Today my story comes to a close, I'm drinking myself to death along with a couple sleeping meds and ibuprofen bc it's what I have handy. I was going to turn my life around working as a life insurance salesman. However it required so much upfront cost to get started than I had available. I had put all my eggs in one basket. I cannot afford rent today. I've let down my two roommates, my wonderful girlfriend who believed in a shared future together, and my daughter who has 11 more years to work out with her mother.
Fuck capitalism, fuck Trump and his entire cabinet along with the GOP, fuck the United States of America.
Listen to some Rush (hemispheres specifically) for me and punch some Nazis.
Long love the fediverse, long live you all here.
Love, Rebels_Droppin (Logan)
Please don't.
(Please call a friend or family member if you can, or call a helpline: https://988lifeline.org/get-help/ If you've already taken an overdose of pills then please call 911 right now and get medical help.)
Logan, I don't know who you are or what you're going through, but whatever it is, it's not worth this.
Your feelings are real and valid, and I'm sorry you're in such desperation and pain that you would consider something so drastic.
Your value as a human being is not tied to the amount of money you have in the bank, whether you have a career, or any other superficial capitalist Americana bullshit like that.
Becoming an insurance salesman is not what life is about, nor is it the only chance you have to make things better for yourself. If you can't afford rent, that's your landlord's problem for now. Being broke isn't some crime that deserves death, nor is it something that you can't improved.
Things are bad. I understand and feel you. But they will get better. I'm asking you to find hope in hopelessness, and to believe in a future where you and the people you love can be happy. I believe that you can do it.
You clearly have people who love you and care about you... and even if you didn't you can always love and care about yourself.
Please call a friend or family member if you can, or call a helpline: https://988lifeline.org/get-help/ If you've already taken an overdose of pills then please call 911 right now and get medical help.
Yeah politics and work are trash, and money fucking sucks for everyone but the super rich. But there's music to be listened to, pizza to eat, nuts to bust, weed to smoke, movies to watch, games to play, long nights with friends and family, making art and music, and just chilling in a big ball of blankets.
It shouldn't be up to YOU to pay the ultimate price for a society that's been engineered to rip us off. Don't fuckin' do it man!