Synthesizers

Yes thats definitely a point. I think I was there at some point and deliverd a few hits locally and that was a pretty long period that had just that one goal. Not as extreme though as that wasn´t necessary at that time :D

I agree that the core motivation is how you identify with your music and if you live in it and know not much else that pushes you into the extremes. What I also noticed yesterday was definetly inspiration. Not only tutorials and books for knowledge but real live, non music drama and moments that act as a unimagined source for it. Like emotional material and soul battery power that gets the spark lit again. I forgot that a little and thought you can make great art while living in a white room with nothing else happening. You cant. Music is transformed energy from somewhere.