Asklemmy

I hope you found the road you want to actually be on. Sudden deaths (I am going to guess 50s?) freakin' suck. And I have a couple of people I love who have suffered through either older siblings or fathers going at that age either due to medical complications or heart attacks. And they're all kinds of ugly, because it's just like...I mean I know they always say "it's too soon" when they point at people in their 20s and younger. But really - even 50s and under are too soon. Because they're here one day, and then they aren't. And it just feels like there's this hole that your mind cannot wrangle, and a pain your heart cannot take. I feel so hard for people who lose people too soon. It's lovely that you share his bigness though, still. And it's beautiful, the way kindness is contagious. One time I was on a train with my ex, and a blind guy came bussing through. Scam or not, when a dollar entered the pot - more and more came. And it showed me how people are willing to give, but their hearts need to be guided. Your uncle (and he was most def your uncle ;P!) showed you that, and it's big! So many people discredit kids, I grew up with better seen not heard. But I mean, in general - you can see kids being discredited right now just look around. It's big he taught you to look after the whole lot. And he for sure loved you guys to death. Big healing, big love - tons of aloha.