Hiya. Someone suggested I post here so hopefully it's ok. My name's Gwen. I'm a pretty mentally scarred late 20s post op trans girl who never really recovered from getting kicked out over trans stuff 5 years ago. I live in community housing in downtown Ottawa, on disability for now and finising my last 2 uni courses eventually and deal with major weeks to months long episodes of bipolar crash, severe depression, anhedonia. Probably have undiagnosed adhd and autism. When I do get a spark of life (usually around other people) I'm an audio-visual art nerd, possibly wanting to get into filmmaking and writing as a dream but probably trying to go back to the genetics lab I worked at over the summer (if u want to get into film/writing/art together let me know, collaborating with others over a shared project really focuses me and brings me back to life).
Why I'm writing this is because I'm looking for a gal or guy to make friends with and spend a decent amount of time with (at least once a week tho sustained contact preferred) to hopefully help get out of this unbearable slump I've been in since my summer genetics lab job ended. I really shut down after it and have been struggling to leave the house, get out of bed, clean up my tiny studio apartment, much of anything being alone. If ur similarly struggling...let's help each other back to life. If ur a kind soul not going through shutdowns like this but still want to get acquainted and be a supporting soul hit me up as well. A strong stable nurturing influence for healing would be nice. Someone to provide mutual support/discipline/accountability. Someone to feel safe with, comforted, reassured.
As bad as my bad state gets I do function quite well between crashes, being careful not to overload myself as bipolar mania tries to make me conquer the world so if applied correctly I can be someone unstoppable by your side. I just grew up very dependent on my parents which suited their abusive need for control over me so I'm not entirely independent, semi independent. Once I get functioning I'm a lot better like I said. Helps a lot to have external support/help getting back on my feet with this bipolar crash making it very hard to function alone. Working on lessening the severity of the crashes, have had success toning down mania so hopefully in time and with support the crashes will get more livable as the mania got more manageable as well. Even just getting out of the house to hang out with u would be a great start. So ya if uv been down like me or just down to be a supportive friend to spend time with feel free to message me in dms/chat. Thanks in advance for getting to know me