theotherwoman

I really don't know if I want to go to battle with my landlord through a government agency. I've had negative experiences with the government, including police, and am highly distrustful of government workers. I also don't know if I want this to be my battle. I feel like I have enough problems I still haven't dealt with, like health issues to take care of and other stuff. I wish I could leave and get my deposit back too, but I think that deposit is gone no matter what.

I am sure there is at least 1, there is no ambiguity. I squished it, blood came out, the pesticide person saw it, I took pictures, and I kept it in a bag after as evidence in case I leave. It is not similar to a bed bug, it is the exact shape when looking at it closely, confirmed by the exterminator person.

The exterminator also did not spray anything, just putting out glue traps. I don't know if this exterminator does bed bug treatments. The manager said they would speak with the owner and get back to me and they had to speak with them after seeing it. (The manager and exterminator both saw.) I didn't receive an email or put anything in writing yet because I felt it was more likely than not I would just leave and the email was going to be notice that I was leaving due to habitability issues, along with a bedbug picture and hadn't decided. Perhaps I should email them ASAP just to document it. I am just concerned once I email them they may respond with information about their attempts to resolve it and I may be better off just leaving immediately, claiming habitability problems from the outset.

I did get bitten last night, but slept with the window open again. It could be a mosquito bite, but it feels like a bed bug bite. I should probably leave.

The exterminator put out glue traps for the bed bugs and I don't see anything in one. Another has tiny dots that look like lint and could be lint from my socks or pants, but may also not be.

Someone mentioned diatomous earth. Does that actually work? It seems like if it were just that easy, then bed bugs wouldn't be such a big problem. It would be easy to spread all over the floor in this room since so little stuff is here.

There is a built in closet/cabinet in the apartment. Although it's built into the unit, there is space behind the closet/cabinet and I can't see at all what is there. There's not an easy way to treat that area, it looks like.

This is really too bad. The rent is due today. I either pay it or leave and don't pay it.

I already feel like I got ripped-off from the deposit. If I don't pay the rent they will likely keep the deposit. This is a 1 year lease but since there's a wait to get, they will fill the room immediately if I leave. I'll just lose the deposit and the month's rent if I pay that. It's a lot to lose. I could also not pay today, violate the lease to see what tomorrow is like, and pay a late fee or penalty or leave prior to them initiating evictions. It seems unlikely they will persue legal action and I lose my deposit either way. It would buy me time if I am unsure. Possibly I am just in denial.

Yesterday I purchased new shoes, new socks, new pants, and new underwear. I put them in a plastic bag and tied it multiple times. I have two garbage bags also in a different plastic bag which I have food in. I briefly opened that bag when In tried to eat food, if it's a bad idea to use those bags now I can get more at the local store.

I could also go to the bank and return the cashier's check for this month's rent that I havent given them yet to try to get that money back.

I am still unsure about the wisdom of giving up a tenancy like this. There are 60-70 units in here. It took me 6 months of waiting to get off of a wait list and about 2-3 months of paperwork to get this approved because it's so affordable it's considered partly subsidized. I can also just be in a cheaper area and work remotely there, but I don't have a lot of job security, it could possibly be easier to work in this area if I lost my job. I have family who would probably help me slightly to prevent me from becoming homeless, so I am unlikely to become a long-term homeless person by leaving.

I could also do as the locals do, set up wood blocks in front of the door, sprinkle diamtomous clay all around, and get a bunk bed with bug traps underneath the legs and then put a desk underneath. The room is so small I was planning on doing that anyway.

But I also don't want to be spreading bed bugs to other people and worrying about doing that. It seems like it would be an awful way to live, to have to worry about that. I know people in this area, but I will be worried about seeing them if I am having occasional bites.

I shouldn't have slept with the window open. I did see a bug flying around when I first woke up, but also all the bugs I have seen flying since being around here were not mosquitos. It seems more likely than not a bed bug bite meaning there's more than 1.

The bite I got last night is hurting now. I scratched it and ripped off some of the skin and now it hurts more.

Edit: looks like it's two bites. I think I am going to just leave.

Yes

Yep, it's later and I am tired and I am already feeling that psychological fear. It actually sucks. I know it's non-toxic. I am also itchy in places I know weren't bitten, just this weird somatic reaction. :-( This would be awful to endure for a long period of time.

But also, the bed bug was in my bed last night and I didn't feel bites. It may not like my blood?

Do they smell blood? Are they like sharks?

Do they eat ham? Ham doesn't have blood. Sleep in the ham? I don't get this.

There's a manager and the stuff goes to the manager and that goes to the landlord.

I agree with what you are saying about communication and if there's not clear communication it will never get better.

But also, I'm not sure writing them will help because they will either be dishonest or honest and I won't be able to tell based on the email. I also put this to a vote in a post near the end (up for stay, down for leave immediately) and as of now it's no upvotes and all 9 were leave immediately.

I'm not really able to think that well due to various mental health issues impacting executive dysfunction. I still have things I want, and can still sort of function within society, and so I still exist as a human of sorts, but something like this is super hard for me. (trauma/trigger warning)

So... I'm probably just going to go with the majority of Lemmy down voting this and just leave.

It sucks, my friend's place has major problems. I may think about it more and change my mind.

Perhaps I'll be bitten tonight leaving me with less asymmetric information?

It may be worth a try.

If I can kill them by freezing, I have only 2 bags of stuff here. I can leave with two bags, buy garbage bags and 2 more bags, put the first bags in the garbage bags and the garbage bags in the second bags, and buy new clothes and shoes and socks and just have everything sealed tight. I would be able to freeze what I have, that's easy. I came in with 2 medium bags, almost nothing, and I can just consider the mattress and sheets and pillow a loss since they are too risky to save (and were really cheap anyway).

But I have so little stuff here. I can actually purge everything except the work computer, and I can keep that frozen for half a day without it breaking.

The stuff here isn't that valuable.

The problem with the exterminator is there are many people living here with locked doors. Doing this in just my room is pointless if this is coming from another room.

The cheapest option is leave, stay with my friend, try to get my own place despite terrible credit, but I was sort of losing it and tired from lack of sleep there. How my friend sleeps through trucks backing up and unloading stuff next door is beyond my understanding.